Aaron - 3 day rule
Ryan - 3 second rule and IOI's
Is this what he is following? Are these his dating rules? Apparently, I am following them as well as I don't think he is interested so I am not going to contact him again. Obv he doesn't want to be bothered. I am cool with it.
I guess he couldnt just come right out and say it. That is ok though :) I don't need him to say it anymore..
In other news, nothing like going to see one boy with another boy in tow. Had a awesome last night...just awesome. They both got a long very well also. :D
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Flowing Words are better than floating words...and lies
I am once again writing in here to stop myself from doing something foolish off of here. :D I am just spewing all the nonsense and craziness in here to keep me from letting it out .. out there..
what a strange love triangle i am in this week. I am not even in love. Jake. we don't buy no drinks at the bar we order champagne cuz we got mad dough..Neil is till calling me and I don't know what to tell him. I like him, but not the way he likes me. I think this is how "m" feels about me also which... SUCKS! Cuz I am into him. Why is it that people are attracted to people that aren't attracted to them?!!? That is so fucking lame. And you know whats worse? He is probably attracted to a girl that isnt THAT into HIM too.. can we say what a fucked cycle?!
Anyway, I cant stop thinking about him and I am acting like a idiot over someone who obv isn't as into me as I am them. LOL. Then I am in this triangle with Jake and Jen! Jake is into me but Jen is into HIM! :( Ugh, sucks to be me right now.. I just need to get over this situation and move the fuck on already...?!
With M, our IM convo led me to think he liked me too..(i freaking was an ass and put it all out on the table - "hi, here are my feelings, BREAK THEM pls") but idk, I think he is just playing with me even tho he says he doesn't want to play games and likes my honesty! LOL. He was like yeah I like you too.. i want to get to know you.. blah blah.. but then his ACTIONS are not really showing that. I fucking hate dating.. you never know where you stand with someone in the beginning.. but maybe if they don't contact you very often you don't really stand anywhere... huh?
If I go by how Neil acts and put his actions next to that...then yeah, he doesn't fucking like me. Neil calls me way more, wants to see me much more and expresses real interest, in me consistently. It is not that I don't want this attention, it's that I don't want it from him.. I don't trust Neil.. and he is sarcastic and I don't get the vibe that he will be soft or gentle.
what a strange love triangle i am in this week. I am not even in love. Jake. we don't buy no drinks at the bar we order champagne cuz we got mad dough..Neil is till calling me and I don't know what to tell him. I like him, but not the way he likes me. I think this is how "m" feels about me also which... SUCKS! Cuz I am into him. Why is it that people are attracted to people that aren't attracted to them?!!? That is so fucking lame. And you know whats worse? He is probably attracted to a girl that isnt THAT into HIM too.. can we say what a fucked cycle?!
Anyway, I cant stop thinking about him and I am acting like a idiot over someone who obv isn't as into me as I am them. LOL. Then I am in this triangle with Jake and Jen! Jake is into me but Jen is into HIM! :( Ugh, sucks to be me right now.. I just need to get over this situation and move the fuck on already...?!
With M, our IM convo led me to think he liked me too..(i freaking was an ass and put it all out on the table - "hi, here are my feelings, BREAK THEM pls") but idk, I think he is just playing with me even tho he says he doesn't want to play games and likes my honesty! LOL. He was like yeah I like you too.. i want to get to know you.. blah blah.. but then his ACTIONS are not really showing that. I fucking hate dating.. you never know where you stand with someone in the beginning.. but maybe if they don't contact you very often you don't really stand anywhere... huh?
If I go by how Neil acts and put his actions next to that...then yeah, he doesn't fucking like me. Neil calls me way more, wants to see me much more and expresses real interest, in me consistently. It is not that I don't want this attention, it's that I don't want it from him.. I don't trust Neil.. and he is sarcastic and I don't get the vibe that he will be soft or gentle.
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