Me and Luke!

fab0ne: hows it going?
me: wow weird.. how are you? i was just thinking of you earlier
fab0ne: maybe my ears were ringing.
i am well.
loving this gig i am working.
me: what are you doing now?
fab0ne: i am working as associate video designer with Blue Man Productions
me: oh nice! in PA?
fab0ne: not on regular blue man shows. on project that they teamed up with another company.
NY
i am living in Queens. till atleast march
working at broadway and houston
me: oh wow
great!
fab0ne: the show is mobile vaudeville. actors in the environment. integrated with media cues. driving around on bus viewing it
me: damn i want a gig I love...
how the hell do I do it though?
fab0ne: it is just so random how this stuff works out.
me: i know
i will pray the same happens to me
how is your personal life going also?
Sent at 6:38 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: my girlfriend is visiting me from tokyo on Sat. for two weeks.
Sent at 6:39 PM on Thursday
me: sweet!
how did you guys meet?
fab0ne: she was studying in philadelphia
me: then moved to Tokyo?
fab0ne: well she was exchange student. then went back.
i was there in april
she was here in febuary
we had 5 months before that when we didn't see each other.
Sent at 6:42 PM on Thursday
me: how did you keep in touch?
Sent at 6:44 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: we skype and message. we both have skype in and out and skype to go.
so its pretty easy
me: i have skype too!
thats cool
and do you video conference and all?
fab0ne: yeah.
Sent at 6:45 PM on Thursday
me: is it easy to stay completely faithful to someone so far away from you?
fab0ne: yeah cause i am a nerd.
me: so if u felt more women were interested it would be more or less difficult?
fab0ne: haha
well i try to walk the line. i don't really talk to women outside of work too much.
me: that helps
ad your woman has built trust with you also.. ?
fab0ne: i am not much for casual dating or relationships.
me: im asking because you are both far away from one another and life is life..
fab0ne: yeah. we are pretty syncopated with our lives even though we are apart.
me: very cool
very cool! im glad to hear it!
fab0ne: this city is full of beautiful women though. i am not saying i don't notice that.
me: yeah but you dont act on it which is really nice for your girl
and her city im sure is the same :)
fab0ne: i would feel so bad about myself. i have a really strong conscience.
me: that is wonderful
i do too
fab0ne: i am still at the studio.
me: want to talk another time?
fab0ne: rendering out video. tomorrow is our first test run of show.
me: ah ok
fab0ne: chatting is fine. video is rendering.
me: so what else is up what is there to do in queens these days?
fab0ne: all i know about queens is tacos.
me: LOL
fab0ne: and Vietnamese food
me: food?
thats what you're up to/
working and eating
you know? not bad!
fab0ne: i am living in jackson heights. my room mate is a chemist. i have known her for 8 or 9 years. she is from PA. she needed a room mate and timing worked out.
Sent at 6:57 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: i kind of wish i was in manhattan. commute is 40 minutes.
me: eeek yeah
i dont miss living in Queens working in NYC
fab0ne: not too bad. i use computer on subway. but i had no time to look for a place.
i had one free week between gigs.
i was in Mississippi and then Philly and then Tokyo and then week off and then here.
me: eek
glad u found that place!!
Sent at 7:01 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: yeah. for real.
me: could have been a tough outcome!
the traveling aint so bad either
fab0ne: i would have had to live in a hostel.
or in the subway.
not really. but it would have been rough.
me: lol
looks like my fate if i dont make a decision soon!
Sent at 7:04 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: are you moving?
me: im making a decision as to move or not
Sent at 7:05 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: what are the options like?
me: well if you have the time i would like to talk to someone about it
Sent at 7:07 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: i am here for a while
me: basically my family is over there.. and I am over here. I miss them but i dont have the best relationship with them. however, my g'rents are getting old and they are going to die soon. i have expenses here and need a car. my expenses are about 2,300 a month and that is w/out cool shit like a Wii or a nice wardrobe and dinner outings.
my expenses there are the same without the car because car = trans (bus, subway etc)
however, school here is the cheapest in the country
and i have no job because i dont have a degree
if i go to school there i could get some shit job in the meantime
but wont have money to save or be able to attend/afford schooling without loans
which i dont want to do
here htere are no shit jobs because every thing is far and you have to drive everywhere
i want to be with my g'rents before they go
but i also want to get an education for free while i can
i have a place there and place here
and i need to give 30 days notice here if i am moving out
fab0ne: that is a big decision.
me: and if im not leaving here then i need to let that place go
i know! :(
the other thing is I feel much safer here than there.. as my neighborhood is dangerous over there
fab0ne: well i say school should be priority.
me: and here i live in basically a vacation home
lol
but i cannot keep affording it if i dont find work
then im only spending and not taking money in..and i dont believe in that
fab0ne: its tough decision.
me: it is!
and ive been trying to make it for like the last 2 months
Sent at 7:14 PM on Thursday
fab0ne: are you in school?
Sent at 7:16 PM on Thursday
me: no
fab0ne: are you going to be able to go to school and survive?
me: no
i wont if i cannot get a job
and unless i have at least a 2 year
i cant get a job
that pays for $2000 in expenses
ugh
i feel hopeless right now
i know everything will work out
fab0ne: yeah.
me: i just wish icould find my answers quickly
fab0ne: it will.
me: and make a decision and go with it
but because im scared to choose the wrong one
im not making one!
i really dont want to lose my apt here
and i dont want my g'rents to die not knowing me
having me around to do things for them
fab0ne: hmm?
me: they deserve that from me after all they have done for me
fab0ne: well i understand that. i spent lots of time with my nana over the last two years. but you have to live your life.
me: if i was just lving my life
i wouldnt leave
would try to find a job here and just go to damn school
and if i didnt make any money or find work
i would use my savings for school
to pay it off as it is not as expensive as in the country
$23 per semester per class!
i mean there is no other schooling i can get at that price
fab0ne: you should go to school there.
that is great!!
me: i know
but then if they die..
omg Luke i will never forgive myself
fab0ne: g'parents are important. and they will die. but you need to do what is right for you. your not going to save them. you need to get your feet on the ground and have a life that you like.
me: what is right for me is to get my degree and work hard
Sent at 7:25 PM on Thursday
me: what is right for me is becoming a true adult and taking care of myself
as well as I can
and helping others
me: hmmm i dk
i just dk, i gotta make this decision soon. very soon.
























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