Praise 2

What a great day to give thanks and praise! I am listening to Napoleon Hill. It is inspirational to know that God has blessed so many people in so many ways. Where is the credit to him for all he has given you? Well, I am here to give him credit.

Tonight I am going to the movies to see Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I hope it will be good. I got the call from my interview. They wanted me to start ASAP. I had to let them know I am getting treatments so I will need a flexible schedule and time to get treatments this week and next and I prayed on it last night, and then let go saying whatever is your will God, I am ready. Today they called me and said they are fine with being flexible for my treatments! Talk about blessings!

Thinking back to before Chris pushed me, that company that rejected me, was not for me. It was not in God's will. Here I am one month later, single, with friends, a job, a place to live, a car, and an opportunity to heal as well! I am ready to give back. I am ready to continue on my path to righteousness as well as excitement and fervor in living my life healthfully and gratefully.

Today in Borders I read about the ouch factor which I completely agree with now. Years ago I didn't even think this way. But here it is.

1) Know
2) Trust
3) Rely
4) Commit
5) Touch

That is the order of things. That is safety. Any narcissist I meet in the future will leave during the "know" phase because they are not capable of true sharing and run from it.

Any abusive man will also leave me during the "know" phase as they are quick to move to "touch" and will show themselves almost immediately. How dare you be that comfortable to touch me at all?

As it states each level of giving, should be only as high as the ONE PRIOR.

I used to do it so differently! Starting with touch, what a fucking mistake! No wonder I was lost and later, hurt each time. There was NO "KNOW" period, def NO TRUST or RELY period. It was a couple days of sharing and attraction and BOOM I was there for what I thought was "life". Gonna get married, this is the one for me, he gave me the time of day, Ugh, how gross that distortion is.

I am better than that. Work to get me to open up to YOU, Stranger. I will no longer give of myself at all. No info. No wishes or desires to share. YOU SHARE. YOU SHOW. I TAKE TIME AND WATCH YOU.

Just watching. Behaviors, past relationships, treatment of others, any addictions?