From Chris:
“How come you wouldn't want to? I would like you to reconsider, there isn't anything to be afraid of. It doesn't have to be for long, maybe coffee or something in public? We can both agree I've respected your boundaries thus far which should indicate my respect and Love for you, (through my actions.) Please allow me to express some things in person, I promise none of what i have to say is rude, violent or disrespectful. I've been alone with my thoughts and have a "burning desire" if you will. FYI, I haven't been with anyone, nor been comforted by any women, I've been reflecting. My donation isn't contingent on us meeting either, so please don't feel that I'm using money as leverage.
Also, Karl and I's good friend died last Saturday in Thailand.”
-c
Which actually means:
How come you wouldn't want to? (after I have abused you for a year) I would like you to reconsider, there isn't anything to be afraid of. It doesn't have to be for long, maybe coffee or something in public? We can both agree I've respected your boundaries (because I have been looking for other girls and masturbating and getting high ALOT) thus far which should indicate my respect and Love for you, (through my non-actions.) Please allow me to express some things in person (I know I had a year of your time to do this) , I promise none of what i have to say is rude, violent or disrespectful. I've been alone with my thoughts and have a "burning desire" (let me try to con you with something your religious self believes in) if you will. FYI, I haven't been with anyone, nor been comforted by any women, I've been reflecting (while updating my personal ads). My donation isn't contingent on us meeting either, (unless we're not gonna have ex sex or you aren't gonna see me) so please don't feel that I'm using money as leverage. <--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">
Also, Karl and I's good friend died last Saturday in Thailand. (in his language this means "Feel sorry for me, so intimacy maybe?")
-c
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The above letter arrived yesterday being from the same man who recently updated this below sex personals concurrently. I know this because I created a ad long ago on the same site to keep an eye.."makeuluvme3"-oh how sad it was with him. :(
26 year old Man in Manhattan Beach, California
Looking For: Men, Women, Couples (2 men) or TS/TV/TG for Discreet Relationship, Intimate Relations
Profile for geekyfreak81
26/m/Cancer (husky/handsome) friendly, honest, open, humorous, down-to-earth. looking for anything safe. open minded. Non-abusive/non-controlling/non-violent, honest, mellow, passive, stress-free, sensual, very open sexually. Thanks for reading, please flirt or email soon. I'm fun and enjoy non-adult fun with honest, reliable people just as much!
Enjoy,
-c
My Ideal Person:female(s) - clean, discrete or open, up-front, sensual, patient, non-abusive, non-aggressive, honest, humble. Not picky with shape, prefer more than not :) anal not a requirement, but a plus if you like.
Here is the truth:
Profile for geekyfreak81
26/m/Cancer (husky (300 lbs/larger than most)/handsome) friendly, honest (liar), open, (open to affairs, illegal activities and drugs) humorous (he means making fun of you), down-to-earth (very very very down and degen). looking for anything safe (someone compliant and dumb). open minded. (open to trying to manipulate your mind) non-abusive/non-controlling/non-violent (IT IS ALMOST LAUGHABLE THAT HE CAN SAY THIS - HE NEEDS JAIL TIME), honest (no, really, I am!), mellow, passive (passive-aggressive), stress-free (he means you will be the one with stress because hes am totally irresponsible), sensual, very open sexually.(he means he’ll have sex with you and many, many others - with or without you)
I prefer a little touching and licking first! Also I enjoy all things, especially the giving (of blowjobs cuz he goes both ways). Looking for encounters with more feminine than not males. I don't need anyone with patience for now as I'm just now getting comfy with things inside me (he means ram my ass pls so I can feel young again and simultaneously learn to resent you as you remind me of my childhood).
<--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">
<--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">“I have a car (HE HAD a car, and just like everything he "loves" there was no maintenance by him, so it broke down) and love stopping by at all hours of the day and night. I'm very punctual and respectful. I have a place (a room with dog hair) in Manhattan Beach that we can use at lunch nearly everyday, and I want it everyday, so don't bother calling, just come and see who else shows up. (I'm totally disease free, for now but since anyone can come in me, on me, and I don't discriminate at all because I'm an addict, who knows?)
Still interested, I'm waiting.”
“Thanks for reading, please flirt or email soon (cuz I'm already turning to TV's but I'd like a real woman to show to my parents). I'm fun and enjoy non-adult fun (I'm emotionally unavailable-sort of like a child) with honest, reliable people just as much!
Enjoy,
c”
His “Ideal” Person Interpreted: his “ideal” is a non person, someone weak (non-aggressive, non-abusive) who has no physical boundaries that he can abuse and lie to, that will take all my shii. Patient because I am a drug addict and irresponsible with my money, with no intent of ever changing. Anal raping me is a total plus but since you will be "humble, dumb and weak, I'll prob just cheat on you with a guy or girls. Be reliable, let's just fuck all the time - only my needs matter!
Enjoy, (being suckered by me)
c (I use lowercase because I know what a jerk I can be sometimes and I have low self esteem.)
Yes, I was with that person and loved that person, and I accepted those things about them, and thought that was all I deserved and could ever want. How sad it was with him, I would never go back knowing what I know now, and finally after 17 years having some self esteem & more strength - learning I don't deserve bad treatment at all. I feel so very lucky.
Upon rereading this entry though it’s all true, it is written with some resentment.
Still interested, I'm waiting.”
“Thanks for reading, please flirt or email soon (cuz I'm already turning to TV's but I'd like a real woman to show to my parents). I'm fun and enjoy non-adult fun (I'm emotionally unavailable-sort of like a child) with honest, reliable people just as much!
Enjoy,
c”
His “Ideal” Person Interpreted: his “ideal” is a non person, someone weak (non-aggressive, non-abusive) who has no physical boundaries that he can abuse and lie to, that will take all my shii. Patient because I am a drug addict and irresponsible with my money, with no intent of ever changing. Anal raping me is a total plus but since you will be "humble, dumb and weak, I'll prob just cheat on you with a guy or girls. Be reliable, let's just fuck all the time - only my needs matter!
Enjoy, (being suckered by me)
c (I use lowercase because I know what a jerk I can be sometimes and I have low self esteem.)
Yes, I was with that person and loved that person, and I accepted those things about them, and thought that was all I deserved and could ever want. How sad it was with him, I would never go back knowing what I know now, and finally after 17 years having some self esteem & more strength - learning I don't deserve bad treatment at all. I feel so very lucky.
Upon rereading this entry though it’s all true, it is written with some resentment.
<--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">
<--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">Oooh, help me be strong and fill me with forgiveness Lord for I am clearly feeling resentful and so angry at him for all that he’s done to me and lied about.
<--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">
<--this a="" and="" as="" because="" been="" but="" for="" has="" he="" here="" is="" it="" leverage.="" lies.="" looking="" money="" of="" opposite="" others="" right="" saying="" sentence="" span="" states="" the="" truth="" using="" what="">I am sorry but this is my blog and I’m just letting it all out here where it’s safer.
