I thank God for his love and wisdom and trials in my life to show me the way. For his messages to me in various ways showing themselves. I am going to begin decompression next week for my back. 3 sessions should do it for me. They are $100 each, but I should be well on my way to wellness hopefully afterward.
I am giving back the car, and will be taking the bus everywhere instead. I am preparing to hopefully begin looking for work/start working again soon. I went on an interview this am and watched "Max" last night while drinking wine and have some cheese and crackers.
I need to keep my promise to Jesus today and care for myself with the excited fervor and preparation of living forever. This is much easier to feel worthy of love when there is no one in your life who is going out of their way at times to tear you down or say things that feel bad or show in actions they just aren't committed to you or don't respect you.
I am "the tasty mako that will be great mesquite grilled in lemon sauce" - NOT THEM. Being lonely SUCKS but being with someone I feel bad around or doesn't honor me in actions, is waaay worse.
- I will not go out with a man who doesn't commit to his promises.
- I will not date a man who isnt sure he wants to date me.
- I will not date a man who tries to have sex with me.
- I will not date a man who drinks or does drugs or is addicted to anything to an extent that makes me uncomfortable.
- I will not date a man who's afraid to talk about our future together.
- I will not spend my precious time on a man who has already rejected me.
- I will not date a man who is married or in a relationship with someone else.
- I will not be with a man who is not clearly IN ACTIONS consistently, a good, kind, and loving person.
- I will not date a man who does not respect me when I ask them not to touch me at all.
- I will not date a man who lies to me or has lied to me.
- I will not date a man who seems to want to spend ALL their time with me or doesn't respect my personal time.
