1) 60 days without talking to him is going to be hard because _________.
- I remember us - the early us.
- What if he calls? (nah, he won't call)
- I don't have the # deleted yet or have changed the ringer to the self esteem ringer.
- I am afraid of being alone sometimes.
- I used to talk to him about everything (but he didn't really care, now did he?)
- Remember us and miss what we had.
- Go through this pain alone.
- Get over him and feel his pain to me every day.
- Wish that he would have been different.
- Ask why/what/where in regards to him
- care at all, when he clearly didn't care about me or us
- When I am driving, or in the shower.
- When I am sleeping or listening to music.
- completely rearrange my furniture to look nothing like when he was coming over.
- see Darcy and Karin
- ice and remind myself he is the one who did this to me and therfore does not deserve my good thoughts.
- rest and read my bible
- call Karin, Nancy, Meridith, or someone, anyone! else
- go to church and my CoDA meeting tonight (express myself!)
- cook a nice meal for myself
- set up interviews for this week/find a great doctor
- prepare and write down how I forsee my new life and look.
- call Dr. Matso
- sleep
- God to pray to/to cry myself to sleep to/to wake up in thanks to
- Meetings
- Family
- Karin and friends
- my strength
- my will
- my love of myself
- my self esteem
- my will to change
- my sense of humor
- my legs at least
- pillows, though no bedsheets
- a second chance at a new life
- because wtf? do I have to write this down
- because it actually is helping
- because its by two people who already have love and are married ><
- because this book is awesome
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