Day 39

This is my 60 day notebook entry. Today is Day 39. I'm also going to update these with other things I am doing in 60 days.

1) 60 days without talking to him is going to be hard because _________.

60 days is not going to be THAT hard because:

• I have God
• He is still the same person he was - people change very SLOWLY - he is just "out of the picture", (literally)
  
• I was already able to not talk to him for 39, whats 21 more days?
• After 30 days, I am out of the habit of actually dialing his number, even when I really want to say something, share, or ask him something.
  
• Hey isn't there a movie called 21 Days? Hmmm.
  
• I am busy and focusing only on myself and my changes
  
• I can remember all the exes that I don't call anymore either.
  

2) Why should I be the one that has to_______________?

3) The time I think of him the most is_________________.

• In the shower, sleeping or listening to certain music.
  

4) Today, instead of calling him/seeing him I will _____________.

• remember why I left him (he was great at lip service - horrible at fidelity, respect for me as a mate, self control & truth.)
  
• rest and meditate
  
• pray and read my bible
• call Karin, Sandra, or someone in my family.
  
• play guitar/keys (express myself!)
  
• cook a nice meal for myself
• straighten out my finances (where are you, finances?)
  
• plan camping, and other life to do's
  
• see Dr. Matso
• go do something fun TODAY instead
  

5) Even when I am feeling my weakest at least I've got _____________.

• God to pray to/to cry myself to sleep to/to wake up in thanks to
• my love of myself
• my will to change and the desire to take ownership of my life
  
• work
  
• Shawn McDonald songs to remind me of where I have been and where I'm goin
  
• Karin and friends
• my strength
• my inner beauty
  
• my self esteem
• my sense of humor
• Meetings
• my car
  
• daily blessings
  

6) This is retarded because____________.

• because this actually works

I'm also going to update these with the other things I am doing in 60 days.
LIFE PURPOSE EXERCISES- 40 Days
Day 23 - What is one area where I need to stop thinking of my way and start thinking in God's way (trusting Him)?
In loving myself as he loves me, in knowing I will get through, trusting without reserve, and being able to forgive but not necessarily allow more transgressions or forget.

EATING/EXERCISE TO PREPARE FOR EVER LASTING LIFE- 30 days
Day 13 - ate 3 full meals - varied fruits and veggies. low salt, low sugar (under 20 grams) going on Day 5! Stretched in the morning, swam in the afternoon, took a walk around the area, prayed meditated, ate a healthy dinner and will go out for a bit then come home and get on t'mill.

Focus areas Day 13 - Abs, Bottom, Thighs. (the statistical muscles to go first when sitting at work all day - better get em ready now!)