Getting Well and Keeping Positive Challenge Accepted

I am feeling angry tonight. This is the place where I can say anything I want, write anything I want and let the crazy out so that is exactly what I am going to do. I am extremely angry that I have this illness.

I have been hungry all day long - these parasites or bacteria, fungus whatever the heck I have has had me eating all day. I am angry that I gave in to a sugar craving. Isn't the reason I am taking candida rid to get rid of these cravings? I am supposed to do well and better over time and I am not sure I am. Something is crawling around on my thighs under my clothes right now.. I fucking hate this feeling so much!

I cant stand this overwhelming mental anguish. I think it is fully worse than the symptoms (brain fog, bites, crawling, red cuts burning, red rashes, fatigue) though they are terrible as well. I would not wish this disease on my worst enemy. I am trying to find ways of destressing and staying positive but I have been upset more than once today.

Then there is the enemy who takes advantage of me and my feelings behaviors.. he WANTS to see me fail. He wants to DESTROY my faith and happiness. He wants to put me in DESPAIR. He must be combated with the Word of God. I WILL be healed. In Jesus Name I claim the healing that God himself promised me! I will cling to my faith that I will be healed and I will try again tomorrow on the strict diet that this illness requires. I may have failed today, but I do not have to fail tomorrow as well. I CAN TRY AGAIN.

I may be suffering now but this is momentary troubles. I may be down, but I am not crushed.

2 Corinthians 4:8-12
"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11 For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. 12 So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.'

Despite my own self, accepting Christ who IS MY LORD, LIFE is at work in me!