Freemasonry - my beginnings

Wow.. this was a very interesting read. I am glad I had my generational curses excorcised and that I gave my life to Christ and continue to do my best to keep after Him. This explains a lot about why certain members of my family isn't really "around" or here for me right now in my time suffering. If they gave me (or children) up as a sacrifice in exchange for whatever (I have no idea what level they all are by now, then any guilt at seeing those children actually suffering what they pledged would cause them to naturally stay away) There was a lot of secrecy in my family, now I see why. Sadly, they see my loving God as their evil enemy.

http://www.bibleprobe.com/freemasonry.htm

In long ceremonies with the Holy Spirit, I have done all of the following: 

Cut the noose, protected the throat, renounced the Jezebel spirit and more...!

If you want to do this too please see the following link. 

     I renounce every position held in the lodge by any of my ancestors, including 'Tyler", "Master", "Worshipful Master" or any other. I renounce the calling of any man 'Master' for Jesus Christ is my only master and Lord, and He forbids anyone else having that title. I renounce the entrapping of others into Masonry, and observing the helplessness of others during the rituals. I renounce the effects of Masonry passed on to me through any female ancestor who felt distrusted and rejected by her husband as he entered and attended any lodge and refused to tell her of his secret activities."

1st Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the First or Entered Apprentice degree, especially their effects on the throat and tongue. I renounce the Hoodwink, the blindfold, and its effects, on emotions and eyes, including all confusion, fear of the dark, fear of the light, and fear of sudden noises. I renounce the secret word BOAZ and all it means. I renounce the mixing and mingling of truth and error and the blasphemy of this degree of Masonry. I renounce the noose around the neck, the fear of choking and also every spirit causing asthma, hay fever, emphysema or any other breathing difficulty. I renounce the compass point, sword or spear held against the breast, the fear of death by stabbing pain and the fear of heart attack from this degree. In the name of Jesus Christ I now pray for healing of... (The throat, vocal cords, nasal passages, sinus, bronchial tubes etc.) And for healing of the speech area, and the release of the Word of God to me and through me and my family.

2nd Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the second or Fellow Craft degree of Masonry, especially the curses on the heart and chest. I renounce the secret words JACHIN and SHIBBOLETH and all that these mean. I cut off emotional hardness, apathy, indifference, unbelief, and deep anger from my family and me. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray for the healing of the chest/lung/heart area and also for the healing of my emotions, and ask to be made sensitive to the Holy Spirit of God.

3rd Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the third or Master Mason degree, especially the curses on the stomach and womb area. I renounce the secret words MAIIA BONE, MACHABE-N, MACHBINNA and TUBAL CAIN, and all that they mean. I renounce the Spirit of Death from the blows to the head enacted as ritual murder, the fear of death, false martyrdom, fear of violent gang attack, assault or rape; and the helplessness of this degree. I renounce the falling into the coffin or stretcher involved in the ritual of murder. I renounce the false resurrection of this degree, because only Jesus Christ is the Resurrection and the Life! I also renounce the blasphemous kissing of the Bible on a Witchcraft oath. I cut off all spirits of death, witchcraft and deception and in the name of Jesus Christ I pray for the healing of the stomach, gall bladder, womb, liver and any other organs of my body affected by Masonry. I ask for a release of compassion and understanding for my family and me.

Holy Royal Arch Degree

            I renounce and forsake the oaths taken and The curses involved in the Holy Royal Arch Degree of Masonry, especially the oath regarding the removal of the head from the body and the exposing of the brains to the hot sun. I renounce the Mark Lodge, and the mark in the form of squares and angles, which marks the person for life. I also reject the jewel or talisman that may have been made from this mark sign and worn at lodge meetings. I renounce the false secret name of God, JAHBULON, and the password, AMMI RUHAMAH and all they mean. I renounce the false communion or Eucharist taken in this degree, and all the mockery, skepticism and unbelief about the redemptive work of Jesus Christ on the cross of Calvary. I cut off all these curses and their effects on my family and me in the name of Jesus Christ, and I pray for healing of the brain, the mind etc.

18th Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the eighteenth degree of Masonry, the Most Wise Sovereign Knight of the Pelican and the Eagle and Sovereign Prince Rose Croix of Heredom. I renounce and reject the Pelican witchcraft spirit, as well as the occult influence of the Rosicrucians and the Kabbala in this degree. I renounce the claim that the death of Jesus Christ was a 'dire calamity', and also the deliberate mockery and twisting of the Christian doctrine of the Atonement. I renounce the blasphemy and rejection of the deity of Jesus Christ and the secret words IGNE NATURA RENOVATUR INTEGRA and its burning. I renounce the mockery of the communion taken in this degree, including a biscuit, salt and white wine.

30th Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the thirtieth degree of Masonry, the Grand Knight Kadosh and Knight of the Black and White Eagle. I renounce the password, 'STIBIUM ALKABAR', and all it means.

31st Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the thirty-first degree of Masonry, the Grand Inspector Inquisitor Commander. I renounce all the gods and goddesses of Egypt which are honored in this degree, including Anubis with the ram's head, Osiris the Sun god, Isis the sister and wife of 0siris and also the moon goddess. I renounce the Soul of Cheres, the false symbol of immortality, the Chamber of the dead and the false teaching of reincarnation.

32nd Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the thirty-second degree of Masonry, the Sublime Prince of the Royal Secret. I renounce masonry's false trinitarian deity AUM, and its parts, Brahma the creator, Vishnu the preserver and Shiva the destroyer. I renounce the deity of AHURA-MAZDA, the claimed spirit or source of all light, and the worship with fire, which are an abomination to God, and also the drinking from a human skull in many Rites.

York Rite

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the York Rite of Freemasonry, including Mark Master, Past Master, Most Excellent Master, Royal Master, Select Master, Super Excellent Master, the Orders of the Red Cross, the Knights of Malta, and the Knights Templar degrees. I renounce the secret words of JOPPA, KEB RAIOTH, and MAHER-SHALAL-HASH-BAZ. I renounce the vows taken on a human skull, the crossed swords, and the curse and death wish of Judas of having the head cut off and placed on top of a church spire. I renounce the unholy communion and especially of drinking from a human skull in many Rites.

Shriners (America only - doesn't apply in other countries)

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses and penalties involved in the Ancient Arabic Order of the Nobles of the Mystic Shrine. I renounce the piercing of the eyeballs with a three-edged blade, the flaying of the feet, the madness, and the worship of the false god Allah as the god of our fathers. I renounce the hoodwink, the mock hanging, the mock beheading, the mock drinking & the blood of the victim, the mock dog urinating on the initiate, and the offering of urine as a commemoration.

33rd & Supreme Degree

            In the name of Jesus Christ I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the supreme Thirty-Third Degree of Freemasonry, the Grand Sovereign Inspector General. I renounce the secret passwords, DEMOLAY-HIRAM ABIFF, FREDERICK OF PRUSSIA, MICHA, MACHA, BEALIM, and ADONAI and all they mean. I renounce all of the obligations of every Masonic degree, and all penalties invoked. I renounce and utterly forsake The Great Architect Of The Universe, who is revealed in the this degree as Lucifer, and his false claim to be the universal fatherhood of God. I renounce the cable-tow around the neck. I renounce the death wish that the wine drunk from a human skull should turn to poison and the skeleton whose cold arms are invited if the oath of this degree is violated. I renounce the three infamous assassins of their grand master, law, property and religion, and the greed and witchcraft involved in the attempt to manipulate and control the rest of mankind. In the name of God the Father, Jesus Christ the Son, and the Holy Spirit, I renounce and break the curses involved in the idolatry, blasphemy, secrecy and deception of Freemasonry at every level, and I appropriate the Blood of Jesus Christ to cleanse all the consequences of these from my life. I now revoke all previous consent given by any of my ancestors or myself to be deceived.

All other degrees

            I renounce all the other oaths taken in the rituals of every other degree and the curses involved. I renounce all other lodges and secret societies such as Prince Hall Freemasonry, Mormonism, The Order of Amaranth, Oddfellows, Buffaloes, Druids, Foresters, Orange, Elks, Moose and Eagles Lodges, the Ku Klux Klan, The Grange, the Woodmen of the World, Riders of the Red Robe, the Knights of Pythias, the Mystic Order of the Veiled Prophets of the Enchanted Realm, the women's Orders of the Eastern Star and of the White Shrine of Jerusalem, the girls' order of the Daughters of the Eastern Star, the International Orders of Job's Daughters and of the Rainbow, the boys' Order of De Molay and their effects on me and all my family.
            I renounce the ancient pagan teaching and symbolism of the First Tracing Board, the Second Tracing Board and the Third Tracing Board used in the ritual of the Blue Lodge. I renounce the pagan ritual of the 'Point within a Circle' with all its bondages and phallus worship. I renounce the occult mysticism of the black and white mosaic checkered floor with the tessellated boarder and five-pointed blazing star. I renounce the symbol 'G' and it's veiled pagan symbolism and bondages. I renounce and utterly forsake the Great Architect Of The Universe, who is revealed in the higher degrees as Lucifer, and his false claim to be the universal fatherhood of God. I also renounce the false claim that Lucifer is the Morning Star and Shining One and I declare that Jesus Christ is the Bright and Morning Star of Revelation 22:16.
            I renounce the All-Seeing Third Eye of Freemasonry or Horus in the forehead and its pagan and occult symbolism. I renounce all false communions taken, all mockery of the redemptive work of Jesus Christ on the cross of Calvary, all unbelief, confusion and depression and all worship of Lucifer as God. I renounce and forsake the lie of Freemasonry that man is not sinful, but merely imperfect and so can redeem himself through good works. I rejoice that the Bible states that I cannot do a single thing to earn my salvation, but that I can only be saved by grace through faith in Jesus Christ and what He accomplished on the Cross of Calvary.
            I renounce all fear of insanity, anguish, death wishes, suicide and death in the name of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ conquered death, and He alone holds the keys of death and hell, and I rejoice that He holds my life in His hands now. He came to give me life abundantly and eternally, and I believe His promises.
            I renounce all anger, hatred, murderous thoughts, revenge, retaliation, spiritual apathy, false religion, all unbelief, especially unbelief in the Holy Bible as God's Word, and all compromise of God's Word. I renounce all spiritual searching into false religions and all striving to please God, I rest in the knowledge that I have found my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and that He has found me.
            I will burn all objects in my possession, which connect me with all lodges and or cultic organizations, including Masonry, Witchcraft and Mormonism and all regalia, aprons, books of rituals, rings and other jewelry. I renounce the effects of these or other objects of Masonry, such as the compass, the square, the noose or the blindfold, have had on me or my family, in Jesus Name
            All participants should now be invited to sincerely carry out the following:
(1) Symbolically remove the blindfold (hoodwink) and give it to the Lord for disposal.
                (2) In the same way, symbolically remove the veil of mourning.
(3) Symbolically cut and remove the noose from around the neck, gather it up with the cable-tow running down the body and give it all to the Lord for His disposal.
(4) Renounce the false Freemasonry marriage covenant, removing from the 4^thfinger of the right hand the ring of this false marriage covenant, giving it to the Lord to dispose of it.
(5) Symbolically remove the chains and bondages of Freemasonry from your body.
(6) Symbolically remove all Freemasonry regalia and armour, especially the Apron.
(7) Repent of and seek forgiveness for having walked on all unholy ground, including Freemasonry lodges and temples, including any Mormon or other occult/Masonic organizations.
                (8) Symbolically remove the ball and chain from the ankles.
(9) Proclaim that "Satan and his demons no longer have any legal rights to mislead and manipulate me because I have repented and proclaim Jesus as my Lord, my Saviour and my only source of Truth."
            Holy Spirit, I ask that you show me anything else which I need to do or to pray so that I and my family may be totally free from the consequences of the sins of Masonry, Witchcraft, Mormonism and Paganism.

(Pause, while listening to God, and pray as the Holy Spirit leads you.)

            Now dear Father God. I ask humbly for the blood of Jesus Christ, your Son, to cleanse me from all these sins I have confessed and renounced, to cleanse my spirit, my soul, my mind, my emotions and every part of my body which has been affected by these sins. In Jesus' name.
            I renounce every evil spirit associated with Masonry, Witchcraft and all other sins. I command in The name of Jesus Christ for Satan and every evil spirit to be bound and to leave me now, touching or harming no-one, and go to the place appointed for you by the Lord Jesus, never to return to me or my family. I call on the name of the Lord Jesus to be delivered of these spirits, in accordance with the many promises of the Bible. I ask to be delivered of every spirit of sickness. Infirmity, curse, affliction, addiction, disease or allergy associated with these sins I have confessed and renounced. I surrender to God's Holy Spirit and to no other spirit all the places in my life where these sins have been. I ask you, Lord, to baptize me in your Holy Spirit now according to the promises in your Word. I take to myself the whole armour of God in accordance with Ephesians Chapter Six and rejoice in its protection as Jesus surrounds me and fills me with His Holy Spirit. I enthrone you, Lord Jesus, in my heart, for you are my Lord and my Saviour, the source of eternal life. Thank you, Father God, for your mercy, your forgiveness and your love, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
NOTE: 
Christians should pray for Masons without judging them. Bring their sins to God in an attitude of love, petitioning the Father for His mercy, binding in the name of Jesus Christ the spirits of deception, antichrist, witchcraft and death. Most men have no perception of the spiritual deception they have entered. 
Please remember that 'We do not wrestle against flesh and blood (your loved ones) but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places,' (Ephesians 6:12)

This is a spiritual battle and should be treated accordingly.

(The preceding prayer is taken from 'Unmasking Freemasonry - Removing the Hoodwink' by Selwyn Stevens. (ISBN 09583417-3-7) published by Jubilee Publishers. PO Box 36-044, Wellington 6330, New Zealand. Copying of this prayer is both permitted and encouraged provided reference is made to where it comes from.)

Another day of Diet Protocol.. and realizations of comfort and love

So God willing I will be healed from faithfully pursuing this protocol. There are certain things that increase symptoms and so I really have to keep a certain strict diet to minimize symptoms and spread of this illness. More on that later.

My fiancee is leaving me to go to a funeral in NY. Why do I feel as though he will never come back? Because I have abandonment issues. Because I realized I have an issue of un-forgiveness with men. This sometimes permeates my new healthy relationship in ways I am only now beginning to see. I am about to get married. We are both sick. This illness is bringing up all new things for me. I am learning about myself, my fiancee, and how messed up life can be and how good in all this God still is. I hate this situation so much right now, though slowly but surely I am getting through it. The help of God, my friends, my online "support group", and praise music. I find I can no longer listen to secular music with abandon. Where is the HOPE and the LOVE in those songs? They are all about sex and lust, calling it "love" but it is not actual love. They are songs about cheating, getting over, making money, how being bad is being good, and just illicit entitlement, mistrust, depression, selfishness, and do NOT support healing and peace. These are all things I just no longer subscribe to or really want the influence of in my life. Goodness, true love, trust, honesty, compassion that's what I need more of. It seems its all that's there in the Word of God, and meh, it really helps me right now.

The cleaning routine feels grueling, the body environment changes are sci-fi scary and yet I am alive and still fighting back against this thing. Yesterday my gf told me I am strong and have always been strong. What? Really? This was so hard for me to believe, as I have felt weak for much of my life. At the health food store two strangers came up to me and said I was beautiful and had great artistic style. What?! I have lost my clothes. I have lost/am losing my looks. I am tired and aging prematurely. I was shocked. How could they possibly think this or see that? My realization is 'Wow, it is clear that the way I see myself does not match at all how others see me." I actually came to a lot of realizations the last couple days.

I cannot any longer continue in my pattern of putting myself and my health last - this is where I am now. I MUST care for my body, my home and my life whatever of it that I have left. I really have put food in the past, above God and also turned to sweets for comfort instead of God. I realized too we are taught these kind of things in early childhood. Though my parents may have thought they'd done their best, they had absolutely no training or idea how to raise me (they were younger) but however they themselves had been raised and their own messages of what love is/discipline looks like. I see that now. Throughout much of my childhood times I was hurt by them physically, emotionally and mentally. During these times a sweet would come into the picture. Mentally (as inner voices) strong messages were sent to me. Aww, you're hurting? I hit you because your bad/stupid/ugly/frustrating me, etc. You deserve it. Here have a cookie and go in the other room. Aww, you fell down? Too bad. Get up. Here is a lollipop. year after year, hurt after hurt etc. You need to talk about something serious? I don't have time for you. I would make some food, listen to music or write/pretend instead.

In retrospect, God showed me these kind of early life experiences sent me the childhood messages and beliefs that I have SILENTLY lived by up to now (whether they intended this or not)
1st message (variations) was your pain does not matter/does not exist/is not important. The 2nd was when you are in pain, eat something sweet. Actions speak louder than words, we always hear that, right? The actions sounded a lot like "you don't deserve real comfort, and no one will comfort you so get your comfort from somewhere else." We do NEED comforting. ALL of us. It IS comforting to eat something sweet, even science will tell us that, but it is not LOVE. It is not VALIDATION. It is not UNDERSTANDING and EMPATHY. It is not GENTLE TOUCH. These things are what make a person / a child, whole. I see that now. Sugar/Food did not offer me that. It offered me a substitute. I lived off that substitute, much of my life, indirectly seeking comfort. Believing I could never have the real thing, so I did not need it. I don't even know when I need comfort and I sure as shit dont know how to ask for it. I was see now that I was also taught not to ask for help, because when I needed it I would not get it, or be believed, or justified. Instead, I learned to react a different way to my times of sadness or pain.

Now however, there is really NO substitute left. I CANNOT have my "comfort" foods, my sugary goodness, my work (though abusive many times still gave me fulfillment and a way to have efficacy/self respect), cigarettes, drugs, alcohol, lovers. I realized these were all things that served to destroy my immunity and my body - this illness does not give me the liberty to mess with myself internally anymore or push any "bad" feelings down. Bad food, stress, bad habits, leads to symptoms RIGHT AWAY! :'(

Another realization as Free has left is that this lack of recognition of my pain (from caregivers) and my own self-preserving formed habits to those actions, also directly (albeit unknowingly) led me to be attracted to and attract people who also were pushing down their own pain as well as would not ever be able to recognize mine. Hence I had many abusive relationships, unhealthy, unsafe relationships with others who were also living out and living in a kind of denial of their own with the same above things. The cycle was that neither of us could ever actually comfort each other in any meaningful way.

Prior to knowing God (and reading the Word/Proverbs) I can honestly say I did not know what true love was. What being a "good person" really meant in practice or that I was lovable, deserving, precious, appreciated and ALREADY GOOD ENOUGH.

As an adult too, if I felt bad, I would eat or do something else to feel "better". Looking back my diet was a diet of mostly sugary sweet things, dairy, processed and refined carbohydrates, fast food and very little water. My early life's usual suspects were macaroni and cheese, Taco Bell, ANY kind of cake, candy, cookie or chip, milk, coffee, ANY kind of bread or pasta with some sauce. These were favorite foods of mine. I began to have illnesses and other things wrong with me, but I did not look at sugar or my refined carbs as the culprit at all, neither did my Dr.s who were happy to prescribe pills instead of diet change. I did do the "increase fiber" trend by beginning to eat more vegetables with these foods in the last few years before getting this. Clearly that was not enough for this poor body. Not to mention all the cigarettes and alcohol I put in for my systems and liver to sort out (my main detox organ).

My diet now is no grains, no dairy, no sugar, NO REFINED SUGAR AT ALL (not even natural sugars in the smallest quantities yet) for 18-24 months. As my body is toxic I am trying to add more foods that are more alkaline. How ironic and yet, what a blessing, right? Who knows what my future held if I kept on the way I was? I was on my way to death even though I did not know it. I got this and though He didnt give it to me, he is USING it to open my eyes to so many things.

My diet now due to this illness is very hard for me. In my struggle to not just live, but live well, am even eating things I have always hated due to my upbringing. Before now I could never eat onions or peppers. I now MUST eat them (raw) as they do certain things to my body to help my pills do their thing in building up my immune system.

Last night I was wrecked by seeing 6 new pimple 'bites' crop up on my skin BEFORE my EYES. It's one thing to know something has cropped up on your skin over night or is there but it is quite another to have been looking at clear skin one minute, while looking at your skin and then see "activity"! I must get rid of this illness. I continue to pray and ask for prayers for healing. I cannot function like this. I am fearful. People say those who have this are "delusional". Yeah, I guess I have become pretty crazy having seen the things I have seen and felt what I am feeling. However, after years of being in denial, I am NO LONGER ignoring my feelings. I am no longer ignoring my needs. In coming to that place of self actualization, I am NOT ignoring what I see and my body FEELS, either.

I CANNOT afford to do that. I will die. Just like using the food/sugar/sweets to mask my mental, physical, emotional pain 'symptoms" -- it is similar. But I have changed. I don't want a pharma "pill" to push away "symptoms" of pain/discomfort as I was taught in childhood. I want a real lasting solution to the problem - not just the symptoms. I want to HEAL. I now want and I have found out that I deserve the true LOVE and true COMFORT.

My diet this week was:
12/27 ----began Parabolish while doing http://logosnutritionals.com/products/vitaminsupplements/vitaminsupplementswellnessprotocol/

12/28
L: 2 eggs, 1/2 handful spinach, mixed greens salad w/ cucumber, 8 oz Protein shake, 8 oz Lemon water w stevia
D: eggs w spinach, 1 pc Chicken breast, Green beans, 4 oz lemon water, 1 tsp coconut manna w shredded coconut shreds
S: 2 tbsp mixed nuts

Symptoms: daytime redness and lint on skin after shower spraying w MMS. Light crawling arms, belly, feet during day. Heavier crawling feet at night.

12/29
B: none (woke late at 10am) =(
L: 3:30p - 2 C mixed salad greens w broccoli, cauliflower and cucumbers, Goddess dressing, 1 egg w garlic sauce, 8 oz protein shake, 1 celery stalk w almond butter
S1: 5:30p 16 oz lemon water w stevia, 3 tbsp almond butter, 3 brown rice cakes, 14 Blk bean Beanitos chips (1 serving), 1/2 avocado w pinch salt,
16 oz lemon water w stevia
D: 7:30 p- 1/4 C cauliflower, 2 breasts Chicken, 2 brown rice Vans waffles-3g sugar, 5 oz water
S2: 8:30p -1 dark choc nuts /sea salt KIND bar -5g :(, 1 Brown rice cake, 1 tsp Almond butter, 3 oz Coconut milk

Symptoms: 3 BMs today. Type 3 and couple 2's. more water, more fiber! Some later night floaters (lower fat intake for tomo) feeling freezing cold most of day. Hard burning stings on belly, legs throughout the day. Redness/burning on belly after lying down on the floor. 2 new bites on neck and behind the ear.

12/30-
B: 16 oz water
1 1/2 C Mixed Greens w/ radishes salad w evoo, salt, lemon dressing, 1/2 tuna fish
8 oz Protein shake
L: 4 oz butternut squash soup w garlic sauce, 2 C Mixed greens w cucumber, broccoli and goddess dressing.
1 slice ezekiel bread sprouted w gmo/soy free butter, 16 oz key lime water w stevia
S1: 4 nutjustacookie sugar free - Almond
D: 2 oz chicken w garlic basil, Cauliflower (evoo, salt, lemon), 1/2 Avocado (evoo, sea salt, lemon)

Symptoms: 2 BMs today. Type 2 in am, type 3 in pm. BTemp 96.6 at 7pm. Stomach ache after ingesting increased MMS, sprayed entire body w MMS then slept well.

12/31 --(15 drops MMS begin)
16 oz water
B: 2 eggs, spinach w garlic, 8 oz greens drink (celery, spinach, parsley)
L: 2 celery stalks, 1/2 cucumber, and 2 radish w 2 tbsp protocol ranch, 1/2 c cauliflower rice w evoo, lemon, s+p, 1 rice cake, 2 tsp cashew butter, 4
S: 4 nutjustacookie (pistachio) w rooibos tea - (3=0g sugar), 1/4 slice ginger cashew KIND bar 1.5 g sugar
D:1 egg w green beans, broc, kale, 3 C mixed greens salad w zucchini, broccoli florets and evoo dressing, 1 waffle

Symptoms: 2-3 BMs. Type 2. :( PH at 1p =6.5. BTemp at 6:30p was 96.1. Feeling cold again most of the day. Light-med crawling. Stings under my clothes. Steady @99 lbs; that is 1 blessing! Stinging/Burning today after 4 pm. Had to take a Melatonin 3mg to even sleep thru stings/burning.

1/1 (full moon symptoms - begin MMS split dose)
B: 16.9 oz water, 1 egg w spinach, 8 oz acv water, 1/2 avocado w salt
S: 6 oz rooibos tea
L: 4 oz protein shake, 1 celery stick w almond butter, 3 C Mixed greens salad w peppers, cucumber, light onion, avocado, zucchini, cauliflower and goddess dressing, Coconut oil tbsp w shredded coconut flakes +coco manna, 4 oz Greens detox drink
S1: waffle w cashew butter
D: 2 C cauliflower rice, Mixed greens lunch l/overs, 2 Pastrami pcs

Symptoms: 9:30 AM: BM Type 3- dk brown; BTemp=96.6, PH 6.0. BT =95.7. BT 2:15a = 97.1. Little less crawling today. Some hard stinging and burning.

1/2/14
B: egg, cucumbers, avocado slice, evoo, salt. 4 oz protein shake
D: waffle w 1 tsp org cashew butter, cauliflower rice w coco aminos, himalayan salt, 1 oz shredded chkn, 1 oz beef, mixed greens salad w zucchini, cauliflower, broccoli, evoo, 1/2 c Green beans w 1 tbsp raw garlic
S: 20 oz Lemon water, 3 tsp coco oil, shredded coconut& coco manna w stevia

Symptoms: 2 BMs Type 2-3 green/dk brown;. Less daytime crawling-stinging burning during day. Crawling, stinging and burning at night after 10.

1/3
B, L, D >> fasted w water and 1 lemon detox tea only til 12 am.
Note: missed all pills today also. Did NOT miss Bedtime regimen or MMS dose. Stayed in bed most of the day. How do I take food related pills when I am fasting?

1/4 (woke late again) =(
B: 11am- 2 hb eggs, 8 oz protein shake, 1/3 c almonds
L: 6pm- Jack in the box - 1 turkey burger, 1 hamburger plain (no bun, no cheese, no condiments, no fast food "vegetables" of their lettuce or tomato)
D: 8:45pm- 3 C mixed greens w tuna, and evoo lemon dressing, 1/2 c green beans, lemon water w stevia
S: 12:45a -- 3 tbsp almond butter, 1/2 c coconut manna, 1 waffle, 2 tbsp almonds & mixed nuts

Symptoms: No more PH strips to test urine. =( No money to get basic protocol necessities this week. No BM today. Light crawling. Bites on back and chest. Energy was ok today at least.

1/5/14 (day 7 Parabolish)
B: 2 eggs, salsa, avocado slices, evoo, salt&p, garlic, 8 oz protein shake
S: 16 oz lemon water w stevia, Blk bean soup, 1/3 c almonds
L: missed =(
D: 3 c salad- lettuce, spinach, cucumber, lemon juice, zucchini n squash slices, Blk and grn olives, slice avocado, 1 slices red onion, 1 sm slice green pepper, Greens drink (celery, kale, garlic, spinach, parsley) 4 oz protein shake w 1 tsp flaxseed, Tsp Coconut oil, 8 oz water

Symptoms: 2 BMS in am. Brownish, type 4s. Light crawling throughout day. Burning stinging skin. Energy was ok. 1 bite/pimple on back in the am. Saw small spider and pincer bug today in house. Ugh :( Am I attracting these bugs as they see my skin as dead plant matter? Must step up the KG spray. Missed many pill times and meal times today/this week. Very disappointed w/ myself! Must get back on the schedule!! Proud that I did not have sugar today!

As Peter advised, looking for the blessings and a positive today.