Sentimental Saturday -- The Diet Edition

So as almost everyone knows who really knows me knows that I am eating a very specific diet for the last 2 years since contracting Lyme Disease, Morgellons, and 7 other co-infections. Now starting a new phase with my LLMD, it was interesting to look back (I have tracked almost every meal and symptomology over the last 2 years) and see what I initially thought "eating healthy" meant and was.

I have learned so much more about hidden sugars, GMO foods, how to read ingredients labels and more that its astounding to me that I thought I would get well in how I was originally eating?! I am forever grateful to my early mentor and brother Peter for leading me in the right direction and learning how the body digests foods and such. DO NOT EAT THIS WAY!  LOL 

With that here is a peek: 12/15/2014
SUGAR ADDICT STATUS: So far I am still refined sugar free and I believe I am at least a week or so with being strictly protocol sugar free-all the Praise to God!

I literally ran out of my extension kit and had to just rely on the diet for 4 days; no Candida Rid; there was 1 day there that I just ate sooo much coconut manna (coconut puree) and almond butter; it was very frustrating for me! This week I am shooting once again for only having the "sugars allowed" on protocol. I believe they are natural vegetable sugars, (excluding the ones in the GIycemic article), Stevia, Xylitol, and natural nut sugars (except mold/fungus nuts - peanuts, etc). Here is those weeks diet /symptom diary. Any tweaks or substitutions are welcome! I am in SoCal and near a Trader Joe's, a Whole Foods and a Rainbow Acres "health food" store. Spending roughly $80-$100 a week in food for Freeman and I. =/

12/8/14
B: 1 8 oz whey protein shake
L: 1 protein Vega vitamins shake
S: 12 Mary's Gone crackers, 1/2 avocado w lemon, 1 C Small salad
D: 17 Mary's crackers, 2-5 tbsp Earth balance Butter (GMO free/sf), 3 pc chicken in protocol tomato sauce- no skin, no salt

Symptoms: Ph at 9 am was 6.0. Some fatigue, Weight = 98 lbs. Sore muscles from other days workout, Itchy bites on neck. Still. Red itchy on belly where my clove oil/coco oil mixture was put.

12/9
B: 2 scrambled eggs (in coco oil), 8 oz greens drink (celery, spinach, collards, lettuce w garlic)
L: mixed greens salad w goddess dressing, Lemon water, 2 oz coconut chkn in liquid aminos
D: 1 can tuna fish (w spinach, lettuce, and black olives), 2 C almonds  =(
3-4 tbsp coconut manna, 1 oz ground turkey w thyme &; rosemary

Symptoms: crawling random (legs, belly, back, feet) and red rashes (hands/wrists) ) while working w my storage papers and throwing them all away. PH was 7.5 most of day. Sore muscles from a light cardio & pilates workout. red rashes/burning on wrists while driving and vacuuming the car went away within hour. Crazy crawling at night from 11-3 am.  :( I also slept in Freeman's unwashed blankets and sheets (we sleep separately before marriage) I felt like I was back to "cannot sleep through the night" status and so I took a Melatonin 3 mg. Slept a bit better after.

12/10/14
B: celery sticks (2 stalks), 1 1/2 tbsp almond butter
L: 2 C mixed greens salad (collards, spinach) w dressing (salt, pepper, lemon, evoo), 1/4 c cucumbers
1 C red beans, 1/4 c Mixed nuts,
D: mixed veggies, 22 Mary's crackers, Homemade Hummus (org soaked chickpeas, evoo, salt, lemon)

Symptoms: Lots of random crawling during day and couple bites on butt from stings through my pants?! Random headache level 3-4, thru out the day too...

12/11
B: none - missed my pills this am also! :(
L: 16 oz water, 1 desperate pkg Target almonds in sea salt  :( -- 2-3G sugar
D: 3 C mixed greens salad, 2 tbsp goddess dressing-0g, 1/4 C cucumbers, 3/4 C Brown rice pasta
1/8 c protocol Tomato "sauce", 8 oz amazing grass superfood greens drink-  0g sugar, Celery sticks
2 tbsp homemade hummus, 1 C mixed stir-fry veggies minus the carrots (steamed, not fried)
S2: 1/2 c mixed nuts

Symptoms: Very light daytime crawling- feet, belly, legs. Itchy on neck from red bumps/bites. Light sneezing today. PH was 6.75 at 10 am. PH at 8:30 pm was 7.0-7.5. Aux Body temp 8:30p was 97.6. Weight=105. Up from 4 days ago. Roommate has a virus & is coughing- took precautions to not share food/utensils. Roommate thinks I am weird for this protection. OK..uh how do I know this isnt contagious.?  Wiping all surfaces down as she leaves each room. EXTREME stomach pains tonight like cramps times a million after my MMS dosing.

12/12/14
B: brown rice puffs, 1/2 C Califia Coconut almond milk, Handful of mixed nuts,  Green tea w lemon
L: 1/2 steamed potato, Mixed veggie leftovers, 2 tbsp almond butter, 2 tbsp coconut butter
S: (with the kids) Celery sticks 7, 7 Baked Goldfish - 4 mini pretzels :( --  grrr!!
D: 1 can tuna, 2 tsp of protocol mayo, 1 1/2 C mixed greens salad, 1 C Mixed veggies
S: 1/2 serving coco grove yogurt, 3 tsp mixed nuts

Symptoms. Very light morning crawling on my back. Itching bites on neck. Ph at 11a was 6.5. Slept ok. Ph at 7.0 at 4 pm. Feeling tired and lil weak today, but will try to do a light cardio workout. BM back to normal colors. Type 2-3. Puffy under the eyes again today. Need to find a rebounder or substitute.  This afternoon I am extremely stressed about Freeman and our money situation,  us moving, not really having a wedding plan and him possibly leaving me here. I just want to end it all. I am hating my life now. Evening had more crawling beginning at clients house from 5 pm til bedtime. Once again I ate badly w sugar today at work. No refined sugar, but I just now had whole wheat flour (pretzels and goldfish) at my clients. 11 pm crawling Belly, arms and feet mostly; other areas crawling intermittently. Why does the crawling all seem to go to my belly first? What is in this belly?! Did I infect myself there first? I do remember early on it was always my feet that I felt major crawling and like a ticking/twitching like as if something was pushing out of them - or going to actually come out of my foot!! After work, I began at 13 drops of MMS. I feel extremely ill. My stomach pain is pretty intense right now after taking it! I feel like I have hardcore cramps. This extreme GI pain has happened exactly 3 times now since contracting this illness.

NOVEMBER  (was worse eating!)
11/3/14
B: Chia pudding w stevia, 1/2 Vegan gluten free Pumpkin muffin
D: almonds ( whole bag), Blaze- Gfree pizza 11" personal w/ Spinach, Blk Olives, Sugar free Tom sauce
S: 2 C vegan chili w peppers/onion, 1 Choc chip cookie, S: almonds

Symptoms: light crawling on back, neck, stomach. Extreme Pain in left side of belly for 3 hrs! Ate too much pizza or almonds!! Light Headache.

11/4
B: hb egg, 1/2 c Br cereal puffs gf/sf, Coco milk, Sausage stew soup w green veggies
L: salad w veg and lemon,evoo avocado dressing, 1/3 Salmon, Avocado mint ice cream w stevia
S: Lemon ginger tea, 1 Celery stem
D: curried lentils, Purely Elizabeth 1/4 c ancient grains w/ Buckwheat, millet, amaranth w flax, 1/4 c coco milk
Vega protein drink- 8 oz, 1 tbs dried nuts and fruit

Symfptoms: crawling during the day on back, stomach and shoulders and feet. Bumps on scalp. Biting in crotch. heavy oot crawling in/after shower.

11/6/14
B: eggs
L: salad mixed w dressing, Blk bean chips, 1/4 c Yogurt w granola n cranberry, Cheesecake Pumpkin cookie (1/2!)
Aged cheddar puffs (3)
D: beans, Chicken/Steak cilantro

Symptoms: strong heavy crawling feel on belly, arms, face tickle, legs. 

11/7/14
B: Deviled eggs, Granola w cran 1 tbsp, Greens drink 8oz, Turkey Meatloaf 2 pc, Tuna/cucumber mayo roll
Tortilla chips 2 c! , Gummy bear (1 bear)
D: Squash 1 c/Zucchini 1 c Broccoli 1 c veg medley, Onions, Lemon water

Symptoms: light crawling feeling on belly, arms, face tickle, legs. Good BM. Brown, soft. Good energy.

11/8 (forget stupid diet! I Give up!)
B: 1 jack in the box croissant, Cheese, Ham, Orange juice
S: Marys gone crackers sf/gfree
D: blaze gf pizZa w sugar free sauce vegan cheez spinach n pepperoni
S: "Vegan" oatmeal cookie, "Vegan Ice cream", 3 Vegan 1" truffle balls

Symptoms. HEAVY NIGHT CRAWLING Light Burning skin. Itchy ears. Itchy red bites/bumps. No BM.

11/9 - (not on diet anymore yay)
B: asparagus, Dressing, Marys gone sf/gfree crackers, Lentil soup
D: blaze pizza gluten free, Sf tom sauce, W/ cheese (dairy), BBQ sauce
1/4 Kale, greens and gf pasta pesto bowl

Symptoms: Heavier day time and morning crawling, skin burning hard throughout day, red rashes, 5 bite/pimple on back of head. Oh crap, I dont know if this is cuz off diet, its getting back again!

11/10 ( ugh, back on diet)
B: 2 eggs, Pesto and greens bowl (w no pasta), 1/2 Italian sausage
S: tea rooibos
L: mixed salad, Squash "pasta" w pesto and greens (w no pasta) 1/4 tsp tomato sauce
D: cauliflower piccata, Roasted asparagus
S: raw almonds (20)

Symptoms: body is going nuts.

11/11 /14
B: 2 eggs w italian veggie medley
L: coco chicken 2 pc, squash and steamed Broc, Spinach pesto sauce (spinach, evoo, pine nuts, vegan sf cheez, salt)
S: 1/4 of vegan 1" truffle ball (cinnamon)
D: mixed salad, Cucumber/tomatoes

11/12
B: Hb egg, Green tea w stevia, Kale sautéed
S: 2 raw cookies :'( why do I do this to myself?) 5 cookies choc chip :'(
L: zucchini w Tom sauce, Hot dog  (omg :( )

11/13
B: Hb egg -  2, Granola 1/3 c, Vegan truffle 1/4
L: Mixed spinach w iceberg, Coco Chicken (2), 
S: (at work) 1-2 c tortilla corn chips :(
2-3 c graham crackers chocolate :(
2 pumpkin pie cheescake cookies :(
1/2 choc chip cookie :(
4 fruit gummies
D: Ice cream vegan - 1-2 tbsp

Symptoms: night was heavy extreme crawling and biting on legs, feet, face, belly. It IS the damn food. I have to quit but dont know how?! I need help!

11/14 (try no sugar again today!)
B: 2 hb eggs
L: subway tuna salad (spinach, tuna, blk olives, lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes)  NO Subway DRESSING, no Subway BREAD.
S: 1/2 serving Coconut 1.5g yogurt w 3 tsp nuts (walnuts, almonds, sun seeds), 10 raw almonds, 1/4 c blueberries
D: 1/2 breast chicken w/ thyme n lemon, and 1/4 c pesto sauce, Zucchini, 1 Raw vegan cookie
Green tea

Symptoms: Immediate crawling (felt in car) possibly coyo or blueberries? Or yesterdays? Crawling on stomach and feet 4:30-6:30. Hcavy Crawling stinging rashes at night in and after showering. Ugh. 

Back on Magnifizyme, Candida Rid and Olive Leaf today. Btemp at 11 am was 95.9. PH was 6.5, BTemp at 6 pm was 96.9. PH at 9 pm was 7.0. Crawling randomly throughout the day again - belly and feet. Itching bites still on neck - still itching a lot its almost impossible not to scratch. Sprayed myself with MMS then showered and used Kleen Green and just put clothing on top of it. Used MMS in my shoes when I felt crawling in the car - stopped. Some increasing and decreasing random GI pains throughout the day today. Increasing heavy night crawling and felt a burning on my chest sensation. A new unusual symptom. Lots more specks. The burn hurt a bit more than the ones I sometimes get on my burning hands.

What do Master Ip, Inside Out and Chronic Illness have in common?

I swear Lyme and Morgellons are  so EVIL. An evil that wants to take our hope, our faith, and our joy!!

It wants to /tries to be the focus so we can not focus on God and His promise for us of eternal life in Christ. 

I can't even work I don't know what God expects from me. But...I'm leaving it in His hands. 

Also, making me sad is that I watched Ip Man last night. I realized  if I become dead broke/become homeless (a very possible reality now) I will likely starve to death due to not being able to tolerate simple foods like rice, potatoes, beans or corn...At least Master Ip could fight /martial arts for RICE for feeding him and his family! He fought and applied all he had learned over the years and had even taught others to fight in attempting at overcoming the Japanese invasion/regime. 

Since the beginning of time, poor people everywhere have survived on the very foods/things I cannot eat and God still has not made me be able to tolerate the most basic & natural of foods! If I'm in jail or persecuted as a Christian, God forbid not even bread and water for sustaining me - as I can't even tolerate bread. This is SO sad to me. But today I'm not letting  it steal my joy; fine! I will eat lettuce til I die 😊 while praying for tolerance. 

Anyway, this illness is demonic, cuz it can steal our faith & joy.  It worked on me for the last 2 days, but I'm back "in the race" and "on track" once more!  At least these days it doesn't take me months and years to get "back on track." 

Which leads me to a situation I had and what I realized when I was playing Inside Out's movie app. It's a movie about the mental states of humans. Each emotion works with one another, and sometimes they don't. I downloaded it in December 2015. 

My health began to decline upon moving here. Week after week month after month, I was (in bed) climbing the ladders of the levels. Some boards were really stumping me and hard and others were a little easier reprieve, and still others I some days NEVER thought I would get through! I would sometimes be on the same board for like 2 weeks or a month! Just not being able to pass it. I'd be making mistakes, not being able to figure things out or have no clue how to beat the board!

Sometimes I would even get close to winning a board, but I would still lose.  For every couple of boards you get access to a new emotion - the ones that are in the movie. I would say probably every 25 to 30 boards you get a new

emotion and each emotion has its own special power for levels. 

So I had gotten up to level 155 out of 600 something boards. I was forced to update my iPhone, but then I got locked out of it cuz I had forgotten my passcode. Apples' idea is if you don't know your passcode then everything you have on your phone gets erased in order to "reset" the phone.

I also learned a valuable lesson not to ever care about anything that I ever put or keep on my phone as it can be lost anytime, but back to gaming. 

So when I was able to get back into my phone, I had to reinstall everything! And when I reinstalled Inside Out - it did not remember all my board data so I started back at level 1. 

On top of what I lost: pictures, memos, conversations, music, etc. - I also lost all 155 levels that I had "worked on" for the last 6 months!  All my progress, all my hours, days, weeks, months spent figuring things out for each board  - gone!  At first, I was extremely sad. 

I play Inside Out to help me to get my mind off my symptoms, off my body, sometimes. It helps me when I need to laugh or feel like I need to exercise/escape my mind in some way -  not by watching a movie, not by reading the Bible or learning, not being "productive" but just doing something while disabled feeling unproductive. 

So long as I have my hands (and I don't always have them), I can at least play Inside Out for a little bit when I'm stressed and get away from my thoughts. It also reminds me of my childhood, after school going to the candy store and playing video games and eating tons of candy til very late so that I didn't have to go home. That's probably how I got addicted to sugar too..?!

Anyway, I began all over again. 

I started playing the game again from level 1. But what God showed me pretty quickly was how long it took me. How long it took to get up to 155, how long to lose everything, how long to start back at 1 and how far to go. It took me A WEEK or more to pass levels 1 through 10 the first time! 

God said to me in that moment right there that my going up the ladder and through the levels is much much faster and easier when I already "know the route".

I already went through the suffering, through the frustration, through the agony of puzzling events, not being able to figure out those boards!! 

I already went through failing the board and then trying again and again.  

That reinstall was 2 days ago and I'm at level 53...I got from levels 1 to 10 in less than 30 minutes the second time. Why? 

Because as God showed me, I already went through it all - I knew the way, I have /had and played with the memory of what I did on boards previously, I had my "new" knowledge of the "future boards" that I had seen working my way all the way up to level 155 the first time, I was working with higher and learned new skills on these "lower levels" which were once so extremely difficult and frustrating. 

What once took me months to master, now takes me minutes/ hours to execute. I'm at level 55 and I now move through the levels so quickly as well as know what's ahead.

I'm not sure if there's a lesson there for you or me, but there probably is if we choose to see it. 

Chocolate Chip Cookie Day - The Lyme Way

Here is a great tweaked recipe for any Morgellons/MSIDS/Lyme sufferers that is safe to consume to celebrate cookie day!

(Adapted from detoxinista.com)

Ingredients:

2 cups almond meal, or almond flour
1/4 cup coconut oil, softened (non-vegans can use butter)
2 tsp xylitol / 2 packets stevia 

1/4 teaspoon sea salt

1/2 teaspoon baking soda
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1/2 cup dark chocolate chips

Directions:

Preheat oven to 350F.

In a medium bowl, whisk together the almond meal, salt, sweeteners, and baking soda, then add the coconut oil, and vanilla extract and mix well.

Fold in the chocolate chips, then drop batter by rounded tablespoons onto a baking sheet or parchment paper.

Bake at 350F for 8-9 minutes, until the edges are golden brown. 

Let cool and enjoy! Who says we can't have our cookie and eat it, too? 

😍😊😛

Proverbs Men Study - Man 1 - Can you spot him?

 "The violent, the ruthless, the rebel, the wicked, the angry man, the dark stranger, the hot-headed man, the cold shoulder man, the man of strife, "he who loves to quarrel"

These words may sound very daunting, powerful, scary, and alarmingly this type of description is exciting to some women. Women who wind up in unhappy relationships. Women who wind up sick from added stressors. Women who wind end up being abused or killed. Women who wind up lonely and with children who are essentially fatherless.

The world & media (movies/TV/magazine ads/social) seems to love and give attention to these male archetypes, and unknowingly men may even try to emulate these qualities thinking this is what it means to be "a man" and rule the household, but God says he DETESTS men with these qualities. He HATES them. He DESPISES them and their actions DISGUST him. He says He DOES NOT even hear their prayers. 

Learning this, I humbly asked myself and I wonder why would I or any woman want to CONTINUE to choose this type of man for her boy"friend"?  Or if we are already with one of these men, why we would CONTINUE to stay?  This is NOT the kind of man God wants for us, or that he even likes, protects, guards or listens to. You may believe you "deserve" him, but the God of the Universe DOES not agree!

“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.”

Proverbs 1:7 NIV

- Is your man "teachable"? Does he mostly behave/speak in a way that shows he values correction, improvement and actively makes CONSISTENT changes he needs to make for your relationship? 

- Does he have "fear of the Lord", or even know the Lord? 

Proverbs 2:6-9 NIV

“For the Lord gives wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding. He holds success in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones. Then you will understand what is right and just and fair—every good path.”

A man who would harm us at all is not to be trusted or close to. Gods Word issues a warning.

“Do not plot harm against your neighbor, who lives trustfully near you. Do not accuse anyone for no reason— when they have done you no harm.”

Proverbs 3:29-30 NIV

- How many times have I been accused of cheating? Or doing something wrong by a ungodly boyfriend? Countless. How many times have I been physically hurt by my so called "loving" boyfriends, "for my own good?" Or I "deserved it that time" or was told it's "no big deal" "just a mistake." Not to mention emotionally hurt or mentally gas-lighted. Different men have different responses, but the character trait is EXACTLY the same. 

I accepted it because I thought it was normal. After all, I had lived that way my whole childhood. I accepted it because I did not value myself. I accepted it because I felt (in their dysfunction) they could "relate" to me/understand me. I accepted it because I was lonely and didn't believe anyone would truly ever want me. THEN I met God and I read the Bible I'm sharing now- which uncovered the lies I believed and changed my "truth" and improved MY LIFE.. 

For the Lord detests the perverse but takes the upright into his confidence.”

Proverbs 3:29-30, 32 NIV

- Who are the "perverse"? The men listed above as described by their traits. Google says they are (of a person or their actions) showing a deliberate and obstinate desire to behave in a way that is unreasonable or unacceptable, often in spite of the consequences.

synonyms: contrary, difficult, unreasonable, uncooperative, unhelpful, obstructive, disobliging, recalcitrant, stubborn, obstinate, obdurate, mulish, pigheaded, bullheaded. 

- This also happens to be a great description of the actions (not the sweet make-up words) characteristic of an abusive man. The one who will NOT listen as you have told him repeatedly to stop saying that to you/about you. The one who will NOT listen as you pleaded with him more than once to get help and he makes one call in front of you and then "forgets". The one who will NOT listen as you tell him repeated not to hurt you again and to stop disrespecting you and he does it, again. "Sorry" and then again. "Sorry, you know I love you so much. I promise never again" And then AGAIN.. And again. And Again. Feel me?

- Let's take a look at some more of his qualities in God's Word. Intense WARNINGS God has given us AGAINST being with these type of men. He lovingly repeats it over and over differently each verse until we "get it" and I will do the same here. 

“Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or turn away from them. Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you.”

Proverbs 4:5-6 NIV

"Do not set foot on the path of the wicked or walk in the way of evildoers. Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn from it and go on your way. For they cannot rest until they do evil; they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble. They eat the bread of wickedness and drink the wine of violence.”

Proverbs 4:5-6, 14-17 NIV

“From the fruit of their lips people enjoy good things, but the unfaithful have an appetite for violence. Those who guard their lips preserve their lives, but those who speak rashly will come to ruin."

"Where there is strife, there is pride, but wisdom is found in those who take advice."

"Whoever disregards discipline comes to poverty and shame, but whoever heeds correction is honored.”

Proverbs 13:2-3, 10, 18 NIV

“A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."

"The soothing tongue is a tree of life, but a perverse tongue crushes the spirit."

"The Lord detests the way of the wicked, but he loves those who pursue righteousness."

"Better a little with the fear of the Lord than great wealth with turmoil."

"Better a small serving of vegetables with love than a large fattened calf with hatred."

"A hot-tempered person stirs up conflict, but the one who is patient calms a quarrel."

"The Lord detests the thoughts of the wicked, but gracious words are pure in his sight."

"The heart of the righteous weighs its answers, but the mouth of the wicked gushes evil."

"The Lord is far from the wicked, but he hears the prayer of the righteous."

"Wisdom’s instruction is to fear the Lord, and humility comes before honor.”

Proverbs 15:1, 4, 9, 16-18, 26, 28-29, 33 NIV

- There are two opposite qualities here being pointed out as God the Father and Holy Spirit does/do for us ladies ALL through the book of Proverbs. 

- Notice the evil/wicked man is one who often speaks rashly, without thought to consequences or feelings of another, the evil mans prayers are not heard, he is one who is most often NOT humble or quiet in a peaceful sense, he often stirs up conflicts (fights/arguments), and he often IS NOT gentle or soothing. He shifts blame. He lies. He commands, instead of asks. He assumes, instead of inquire. He is thoughtless to your needs, focused on his.

I loved this because this is a clear description of what he "looks like" in a persons' daily/weekly/monthly actions and behaviors. I never had that kind of wisdom on men - except my wrong "daddy compass" to go by!  It also and this is important-- is a very CLEAR picture of what we type of man that we DON'T want to have in our lives; especially to MARRY. 

He also gives us a clear look into the qualities we should look for while in our mate search. I will go into that post another time. 

The God of the universe has sound wisdom and advice in this love area and read for yourself and believe HE wants more for you!  He basically says "YOU DESERVE BETTER. I don't like this type of man."

His type of love he wants for you is described here.

https://www.openbible.info/topics/gods_love_for_us

It is described as being patient, kind, truthful, unselfish, trusting, believing, hopeful, and enduring. It is not jealous, boastful, arrogant, prideful, rude, selfish, or angry. True love never fails. 

The description perfectly fits God's love toward us, and should be the way we love each other and God. You cannot do that in a loveless relationship with a "wicked man" who has not had his heart truly "changed" by God. 

For the record, I have never met any person who PERFECTLY fulfills this biblical definition of love, but thanks to the Book of Proverbs and Gods gift of wisdom, I can now enjoy love like I have NEVER known before!! 

The Bible says that this unconditional love is more important than everything else (a partial list includes oratory ability, prophecy, knowledge, faith, philanthropy and hope). All of these things, which are "good" things, will pass away. 

Only love is eternal, since God is love & Jesus will be the basis of eternal life. In fact, when Jesus was asked what the greatest commandment was, He said, "YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND." (Matthew 22:37)10

He then added that the second most important law was "YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF." Jesus said that the entire law was dependent upon these two commandments.

If you are not a Christian, I hope you at least desire to RECEIVE and express love as defined in the Bible. 

This kind of love is possible through relying on the power of God, reading this book of Proverbs to recognize the good man, and through faith in Jesus Christ. 

May the Lord direct our bruised and brokenness into the love of God and into the steadfastness of Christ who will lead us to a man after God's heart and be gentle with ours.

Some Memes

Hi! It has been awhile since I've posted a blog entry. I apologize. I am going through a difficult time with my hands and my disease(s). 

I've read that Dr. Horowitz is planning on working with others to try to start changing the name Lyme Disease and co-infections to a new name, describe what it actually is; Multiple Systemic Infectious Disease Syndrome or aka MSIDS. I agree, that's more like it - because really that's what it is. Multiple diseases, not one.

I decided today to just post some pictures & some memes to describe where I am at this moment in time.

I will post more about this diet in the future.

Few days this week, I have been bed bound and it's a big deal to just be breathing and moving. 

The costs of paying for treating Lyme, detox, supplements, vitamins, food (I'm on a EXTREMELY restricted diet (toxin free, GMO free, organic, gluten-free, sugar-free, dairy free) and I can't just eat "anything") and my seeing the Dr. itself are astronomical for two people (I can't work anymore) trying to live on a $17,000 a year salary.

God's firework

Hi! Happy Independance Day to all! I guess I am writing today because it is an Independence Day of a different kind for me. I am choosing my own way to spend this independence holiday. Just 2 years ago after or on this holiday I/we became sick with this illness. July 4th-7th through each Morgellons filled passing year this week has often been difficult for me emotionally since that crazy day when my life changed in 2014. Over the last month I have been treating my Babesia with my meds from LLMD, and using silver and certain herbs. The protocol meds timing, diet, and my desire to improve has really given me a discipline that others now seem to admire. New moon and full moon are not generally easy times for me and yesterday I had another bout of Lyme paralysis and my fiancee had to feed me for the first time, not in the sexy way. How humbling a moment, but those are the kind of days I am so grateful for his sense of humor and God (through Proverbs) leading me to choose a kind, sacrificial, sweet man like him. Today when I woke up and was able to breathe (I have Babesia and some days I cannot) I took a deep breath and decided I will use what faculties are available to me to the most of my ability because with Lyme and 8 coinfections, I really do not know what tomorrow will look like, I cannot take moments for granted, and I keenly am aware more than ever that I can try to think my self to invincibility but my bodies' truth says I am not promised tomorrow! I am so grateful for so many things so I will just write with gratitude here. Today, I am grateful for Mel, Peter and thier site as well as the first information shared which got me to this point. The lasting loving friendships I have made online that have continued even when they left or they went off the protocol. I am extremely grateful for my LLMD who diagnosed me with Morgellons coinfection without me saying anything, and when I was even trying to hide it (doesn't think I'm "delusional" at all), listens to me about the diet connection to my symptom diary and is working with me on a 3 pronged protocol to rid me of my Morgellons, but also my many other co-infections 1 by 1 for as long as my body can handle herxes and grateful my that Medicaid will help me pay for some meds, however temporary. That Dr. is also willing to think outside the box for when I cant afford something or where herbs can step in and help. I am so grateful and love that I still have my fiancee and he chooses to still love me and care for me and to try to help me on my way back to health and keeps me grounded in love and reminding me of God's promises when I forget. I love that we are provided for by God with food, (for the protocol diet) and clothing to wear, if nothing else. I love that God is thus far protecting my liver, kidneys, my gut and heart from these little monsters who want to take over those areas. I am grateful for my Facebook friends who pray for me and also share knowledge and information with one another in such a loving and non-condescending way. I am grateful that we have a place to lay our heads and I have a bath here that I can detox in, however temporary. I am grateful that I have free access to use the FIR sauna and get free essential oils massages. I am grateful that I have inspired others to eat as I do as well as some have decided to join me on this diet journey to health. I am grateful that my mind is still intact and though I cannot write or text some days, I can still speak and use my mind cohesively and my voice. Today I danced and I sang songs of praise. My singing voice has been taken away by this condition, but my legs still work TODAY! So.... I danced as I have not danced in quite some time. Really just letting it all go and crying with joy and gratitude that I can still move for today. It was wonderful just praising God and dancing using my legs. His Word says "make noise of joy unto the Lord and sing songs of praise". I have taken it literally today and did so and was able, unlike so many bed ridden days I was able to dance for more than 1 hour as well as eve take a walk outside in the sunny New York/'nice weather we're having" for my vitamin D today. It's a day of food, drinking, freedom, play, celebrating for most Americans, and I've never even lit a firework, but I guesss there is a first time for everything. I will eat my own protocol food proudly. It is a day for no fear in the battle and ours really has already been won. Thank you Jesus! I see today that I am God's firework (if I will choose to be) and I plan to fly far up there, be bright and as big as I can (even from a bed) for His glory. Praying for all those still suffering today-not out there celebrating the holiday, may you find comfort, strength and faith to go on in this unknown journey.

5 mins and PRESTO: It's Pesto! (Paleo style)

Delicious! I never would've thought that I might like a Paleo pesto but due to my diet restrictions, I've had to find a recipe and this is it. This is IT! It's so gooooood 😍

Almond Basil Pesto 

1 1/2 cups of fresh basil leaves, washed (you can add a little fresh parsley) 

1 clove of garlic 

1/2 cup of activated* almonds 

*(activated means that these have been soaked for more than twelve hours or overnight in half cup of water. I used distilled water or you can also use purified water.)

1/4 cup of cold pressed extra virgin olive oil (use the best quality olive oil that you can find) 

2 tablespoons of freshly squeezed lemon juice 

1/8 teaspoon Himalayan salt 

Food processor or blender: Add all ingredients and blend until well mixed. You may have to scrape down the sides and blend more than once. 

Remember: Have the self control to limit your spoonfuls! 💪🏻 1 cup is about 500 cals. I do 1 tbsp, it's delicious and you don't need more than that for salads or veggies or veggie pastas. 

Also, for anyone that cares here's a little bit more about why activated almonds are also good for you.

http://www.easypeasyorganic.com/2011/01/ready-set-activate-activated-almonds.html?m=1

Sometimes I hate leaving the house

I hate leaving my house. I should not have gone food shopping today. Why one clueless person after another may ask? Why would you? Well, get out you will never understand til you have this. 

Having Lyme and co-infections makes EVERYTHING impossible, including the anxiety that comes upon me when in a supermarket or store of any kind.

Never gets old or better, or easier -->the feeling of being different, feeling of being left out, and feeling freaking alienated by the dietary and physical confines of this sickness. 

I have growing disgust and severe hate for this body simply for the fact that I cannot freaking injest anything resembling foods I enjoyed; like a normal person. 

Other Lymies Morgies, and other raw foodists etc may console themselves say that these people eating these things are all really sick and dying - they say that they are in a delusion of commerce, but the truth is THEY aren't sick. 

They aren't. They hold jobs, they aren't tired all the time, they aren't in pain daily, nor are they having things crawling on them and biting them at night, they have no open itchy sores, or trouble breathing, they don't have twitching skin or random paralysis and can carry on with life (unlike me whose life as I knew it has completely halted). 

It's quite obvious that these HUGE amounts of people eating bread, cookies, chips, cakes AND all kinds of fruit are NOT sick. So why am I? I was one of these people and then one day, I suddenly, wasn't!! I ate these things! Why do I have to suffer this way?!

After 2 years with this, watching people eat their freaking food, buying their food that I know I can't eat, hearing about food commercials on the radio, watching commercials of food of tv and Internet, billboards of food as I drive the streets, disgusts me and makes me sick to my stomach and I want to vomit on the queue counter. It makes it all seem so pointless. No matter what I do, I'm sick. I can't tolerate any food. They aren't. Right now, I hate them AND me. 

Food shopping- this is exactly why I freaking hate leaving my house. 

Freemasonry - my beginnings

Wow.. this was a very interesting read. I am glad I had my generational curses excorcised and that I gave my life to Christ and continue to do my best to keep after Him. This explains a lot about why certain members of my family isn't really "around" or here for me right now in my time suffering. If they gave me (or children) up as a sacrifice in exchange for whatever (I have no idea what level they all are by now, then any guilt at seeing those children actually suffering what they pledged would cause them to naturally stay away) There was a lot of secrecy in my family, now I see why. Sadly, they see my loving God as their evil enemy.

http://www.bibleprobe.com/freemasonry.htm

In long ceremonies with the Holy Spirit, I have done all of the following: 

Cut the noose, protected the throat, renounced the Jezebel spirit and more...!

If you want to do this too please see the following link. 

     I renounce every position held in the lodge by any of my ancestors, including 'Tyler", "Master", "Worshipful Master" or any other. I renounce the calling of any man 'Master' for Jesus Christ is my only master and Lord, and He forbids anyone else having that title. I renounce the entrapping of others into Masonry, and observing the helplessness of others during the rituals. I renounce the effects of Masonry passed on to me through any female ancestor who felt distrusted and rejected by her husband as he entered and attended any lodge and refused to tell her of his secret activities."

1st Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the First or Entered Apprentice degree, especially their effects on the throat and tongue. I renounce the Hoodwink, the blindfold, and its effects, on emotions and eyes, including all confusion, fear of the dark, fear of the light, and fear of sudden noises. I renounce the secret word BOAZ and all it means. I renounce the mixing and mingling of truth and error and the blasphemy of this degree of Masonry. I renounce the noose around the neck, the fear of choking and also every spirit causing asthma, hay fever, emphysema or any other breathing difficulty. I renounce the compass point, sword or spear held against the breast, the fear of death by stabbing pain and the fear of heart attack from this degree. In the name of Jesus Christ I now pray for healing of... (The throat, vocal cords, nasal passages, sinus, bronchial tubes etc.) And for healing of the speech area, and the release of the Word of God to me and through me and my family.

2nd Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the second or Fellow Craft degree of Masonry, especially the curses on the heart and chest. I renounce the secret words JACHIN and SHIBBOLETH and all that these mean. I cut off emotional hardness, apathy, indifference, unbelief, and deep anger from my family and me. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray for the healing of the chest/lung/heart area and also for the healing of my emotions, and ask to be made sensitive to the Holy Spirit of God.

3rd Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the third or Master Mason degree, especially the curses on the stomach and womb area. I renounce the secret words MAIIA BONE, MACHABE-N, MACHBINNA and TUBAL CAIN, and all that they mean. I renounce the Spirit of Death from the blows to the head enacted as ritual murder, the fear of death, false martyrdom, fear of violent gang attack, assault or rape; and the helplessness of this degree. I renounce the falling into the coffin or stretcher involved in the ritual of murder. I renounce the false resurrection of this degree, because only Jesus Christ is the Resurrection and the Life! I also renounce the blasphemous kissing of the Bible on a Witchcraft oath. I cut off all spirits of death, witchcraft and deception and in the name of Jesus Christ I pray for the healing of the stomach, gall bladder, womb, liver and any other organs of my body affected by Masonry. I ask for a release of compassion and understanding for my family and me.

Holy Royal Arch Degree

            I renounce and forsake the oaths taken and The curses involved in the Holy Royal Arch Degree of Masonry, especially the oath regarding the removal of the head from the body and the exposing of the brains to the hot sun. I renounce the Mark Lodge, and the mark in the form of squares and angles, which marks the person for life. I also reject the jewel or talisman that may have been made from this mark sign and worn at lodge meetings. I renounce the false secret name of God, JAHBULON, and the password, AMMI RUHAMAH and all they mean. I renounce the false communion or Eucharist taken in this degree, and all the mockery, skepticism and unbelief about the redemptive work of Jesus Christ on the cross of Calvary. I cut off all these curses and their effects on my family and me in the name of Jesus Christ, and I pray for healing of the brain, the mind etc.

18th Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the eighteenth degree of Masonry, the Most Wise Sovereign Knight of the Pelican and the Eagle and Sovereign Prince Rose Croix of Heredom. I renounce and reject the Pelican witchcraft spirit, as well as the occult influence of the Rosicrucians and the Kabbala in this degree. I renounce the claim that the death of Jesus Christ was a 'dire calamity', and also the deliberate mockery and twisting of the Christian doctrine of the Atonement. I renounce the blasphemy and rejection of the deity of Jesus Christ and the secret words IGNE NATURA RENOVATUR INTEGRA and its burning. I renounce the mockery of the communion taken in this degree, including a biscuit, salt and white wine.

30th Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the thirtieth degree of Masonry, the Grand Knight Kadosh and Knight of the Black and White Eagle. I renounce the password, 'STIBIUM ALKABAR', and all it means.

31st Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the thirty-first degree of Masonry, the Grand Inspector Inquisitor Commander. I renounce all the gods and goddesses of Egypt which are honored in this degree, including Anubis with the ram's head, Osiris the Sun god, Isis the sister and wife of 0siris and also the moon goddess. I renounce the Soul of Cheres, the false symbol of immortality, the Chamber of the dead and the false teaching of reincarnation.

32nd Degree

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the thirty-second degree of Masonry, the Sublime Prince of the Royal Secret. I renounce masonry's false trinitarian deity AUM, and its parts, Brahma the creator, Vishnu the preserver and Shiva the destroyer. I renounce the deity of AHURA-MAZDA, the claimed spirit or source of all light, and the worship with fire, which are an abomination to God, and also the drinking from a human skull in many Rites.

York Rite

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the York Rite of Freemasonry, including Mark Master, Past Master, Most Excellent Master, Royal Master, Select Master, Super Excellent Master, the Orders of the Red Cross, the Knights of Malta, and the Knights Templar degrees. I renounce the secret words of JOPPA, KEB RAIOTH, and MAHER-SHALAL-HASH-BAZ. I renounce the vows taken on a human skull, the crossed swords, and the curse and death wish of Judas of having the head cut off and placed on top of a church spire. I renounce the unholy communion and especially of drinking from a human skull in many Rites.

Shriners (America only - doesn't apply in other countries)

            I renounce the oaths taken and the curses and penalties involved in the Ancient Arabic Order of the Nobles of the Mystic Shrine. I renounce the piercing of the eyeballs with a three-edged blade, the flaying of the feet, the madness, and the worship of the false god Allah as the god of our fathers. I renounce the hoodwink, the mock hanging, the mock beheading, the mock drinking & the blood of the victim, the mock dog urinating on the initiate, and the offering of urine as a commemoration.

33rd & Supreme Degree

            In the name of Jesus Christ I renounce the oaths taken and the curses involved in the supreme Thirty-Third Degree of Freemasonry, the Grand Sovereign Inspector General. I renounce the secret passwords, DEMOLAY-HIRAM ABIFF, FREDERICK OF PRUSSIA, MICHA, MACHA, BEALIM, and ADONAI and all they mean. I renounce all of the obligations of every Masonic degree, and all penalties invoked. I renounce and utterly forsake The Great Architect Of The Universe, who is revealed in the this degree as Lucifer, and his false claim to be the universal fatherhood of God. I renounce the cable-tow around the neck. I renounce the death wish that the wine drunk from a human skull should turn to poison and the skeleton whose cold arms are invited if the oath of this degree is violated. I renounce the three infamous assassins of their grand master, law, property and religion, and the greed and witchcraft involved in the attempt to manipulate and control the rest of mankind. In the name of God the Father, Jesus Christ the Son, and the Holy Spirit, I renounce and break the curses involved in the idolatry, blasphemy, secrecy and deception of Freemasonry at every level, and I appropriate the Blood of Jesus Christ to cleanse all the consequences of these from my life. I now revoke all previous consent given by any of my ancestors or myself to be deceived.

All other degrees

            I renounce all the other oaths taken in the rituals of every other degree and the curses involved. I renounce all other lodges and secret societies such as Prince Hall Freemasonry, Mormonism, The Order of Amaranth, Oddfellows, Buffaloes, Druids, Foresters, Orange, Elks, Moose and Eagles Lodges, the Ku Klux Klan, The Grange, the Woodmen of the World, Riders of the Red Robe, the Knights of Pythias, the Mystic Order of the Veiled Prophets of the Enchanted Realm, the women's Orders of the Eastern Star and of the White Shrine of Jerusalem, the girls' order of the Daughters of the Eastern Star, the International Orders of Job's Daughters and of the Rainbow, the boys' Order of De Molay and their effects on me and all my family.
            I renounce the ancient pagan teaching and symbolism of the First Tracing Board, the Second Tracing Board and the Third Tracing Board used in the ritual of the Blue Lodge. I renounce the pagan ritual of the 'Point within a Circle' with all its bondages and phallus worship. I renounce the occult mysticism of the black and white mosaic checkered floor with the tessellated boarder and five-pointed blazing star. I renounce the symbol 'G' and it's veiled pagan symbolism and bondages. I renounce and utterly forsake the Great Architect Of The Universe, who is revealed in the higher degrees as Lucifer, and his false claim to be the universal fatherhood of God. I also renounce the false claim that Lucifer is the Morning Star and Shining One and I declare that Jesus Christ is the Bright and Morning Star of Revelation 22:16.
            I renounce the All-Seeing Third Eye of Freemasonry or Horus in the forehead and its pagan and occult symbolism. I renounce all false communions taken, all mockery of the redemptive work of Jesus Christ on the cross of Calvary, all unbelief, confusion and depression and all worship of Lucifer as God. I renounce and forsake the lie of Freemasonry that man is not sinful, but merely imperfect and so can redeem himself through good works. I rejoice that the Bible states that I cannot do a single thing to earn my salvation, but that I can only be saved by grace through faith in Jesus Christ and what He accomplished on the Cross of Calvary.
            I renounce all fear of insanity, anguish, death wishes, suicide and death in the name of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ conquered death, and He alone holds the keys of death and hell, and I rejoice that He holds my life in His hands now. He came to give me life abundantly and eternally, and I believe His promises.
            I renounce all anger, hatred, murderous thoughts, revenge, retaliation, spiritual apathy, false religion, all unbelief, especially unbelief in the Holy Bible as God's Word, and all compromise of God's Word. I renounce all spiritual searching into false religions and all striving to please God, I rest in the knowledge that I have found my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and that He has found me.
            I will burn all objects in my possession, which connect me with all lodges and or cultic organizations, including Masonry, Witchcraft and Mormonism and all regalia, aprons, books of rituals, rings and other jewelry. I renounce the effects of these or other objects of Masonry, such as the compass, the square, the noose or the blindfold, have had on me or my family, in Jesus Name
            All participants should now be invited to sincerely carry out the following:
(1) Symbolically remove the blindfold (hoodwink) and give it to the Lord for disposal.
                (2) In the same way, symbolically remove the veil of mourning.
(3) Symbolically cut and remove the noose from around the neck, gather it up with the cable-tow running down the body and give it all to the Lord for His disposal.
(4) Renounce the false Freemasonry marriage covenant, removing from the 4^thfinger of the right hand the ring of this false marriage covenant, giving it to the Lord to dispose of it.
(5) Symbolically remove the chains and bondages of Freemasonry from your body.
(6) Symbolically remove all Freemasonry regalia and armour, especially the Apron.
(7) Repent of and seek forgiveness for having walked on all unholy ground, including Freemasonry lodges and temples, including any Mormon or other occult/Masonic organizations.
                (8) Symbolically remove the ball and chain from the ankles.
(9) Proclaim that "Satan and his demons no longer have any legal rights to mislead and manipulate me because I have repented and proclaim Jesus as my Lord, my Saviour and my only source of Truth."
            Holy Spirit, I ask that you show me anything else which I need to do or to pray so that I and my family may be totally free from the consequences of the sins of Masonry, Witchcraft, Mormonism and Paganism.

(Pause, while listening to God, and pray as the Holy Spirit leads you.)

            Now dear Father God. I ask humbly for the blood of Jesus Christ, your Son, to cleanse me from all these sins I have confessed and renounced, to cleanse my spirit, my soul, my mind, my emotions and every part of my body which has been affected by these sins. In Jesus' name.
            I renounce every evil spirit associated with Masonry, Witchcraft and all other sins. I command in The name of Jesus Christ for Satan and every evil spirit to be bound and to leave me now, touching or harming no-one, and go to the place appointed for you by the Lord Jesus, never to return to me or my family. I call on the name of the Lord Jesus to be delivered of these spirits, in accordance with the many promises of the Bible. I ask to be delivered of every spirit of sickness. Infirmity, curse, affliction, addiction, disease or allergy associated with these sins I have confessed and renounced. I surrender to God's Holy Spirit and to no other spirit all the places in my life where these sins have been. I ask you, Lord, to baptize me in your Holy Spirit now according to the promises in your Word. I take to myself the whole armour of God in accordance with Ephesians Chapter Six and rejoice in its protection as Jesus surrounds me and fills me with His Holy Spirit. I enthrone you, Lord Jesus, in my heart, for you are my Lord and my Saviour, the source of eternal life. Thank you, Father God, for your mercy, your forgiveness and your love, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
NOTE: 
Christians should pray for Masons without judging them. Bring their sins to God in an attitude of love, petitioning the Father for His mercy, binding in the name of Jesus Christ the spirits of deception, antichrist, witchcraft and death. Most men have no perception of the spiritual deception they have entered. 
Please remember that 'We do not wrestle against flesh and blood (your loved ones) but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places,' (Ephesians 6:12)

This is a spiritual battle and should be treated accordingly.

(The preceding prayer is taken from 'Unmasking Freemasonry - Removing the Hoodwink' by Selwyn Stevens. (ISBN 09583417-3-7) published by Jubilee Publishers. PO Box 36-044, Wellington 6330, New Zealand. Copying of this prayer is both permitted and encouraged provided reference is made to where it comes from.)

5 ways to get over a "cheater"/cheating boyfriend:

-Change your number

-Don't talk to him again ever, knowing YOU are/were the better person in the relationship. 

-Grieve privately - be with  therapist, friends, family -do NOT grieve to HIM.

-Know that you are/he is now "sloppy seconds" & he WILL cheat again. 

-When you are ready, go slow and find a righteous, faithful, honest, kind man to be happy with - this finding happiness and true love really is the best revenge

This day in 2015

In June 2015 of last year, I was making A LOT of smoothies. The Lord was/is amazing with me. So what had happened was...lol...I was going through my spinach and there had been so many that went bad and I had gotten a giant bag and I had paid a lot of money for it, so I didn't want to just throw it all away. :(

 I decided to look in the bag for any that I could still salvage/have or save and dry off 

(good spinach wilts when other spinach that are rotten are in there wet with them), and use in the smoothie or a salad. 

As I was looking through the bag throwing out the wilted and rotten ones and trying hard to find the good ones,  The Lord spoke to me and He said "this is how it will be at the end of the age. You are seeking the good ones. You are seeking the worthy ones, and so do I." 

"You paid a high price for these spinach and so did I. I paid a very high price too. Higher than this as I gave my one and only Son."

"(my name), my child, do you see how if you look hard through the whole bag you can see the good green ones? They stand out. You notice how you want to just get it over with and get the ones that are good and are ready to give up?" I WAS getting impatient, because finding perfect spinach leaves in a bag of rotting ones is slow and tedious work.

God said, "I have more patience. I do not want ANY to be thrown away." "This goodness and differences is how apparent the differences will be at the end of the age." 

It was so weird an experience but it was awesome to be with Him while just making a smoothie. :).

3 Song Faves A Day

A song in this playlist today has me dancing. It is nice to be able to let go of fears and frustrations with illness and just dance. :) Oh, how I used to love to engage in the dance! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=stXSKQwIVPw&index=4&list=PLr0yKcklrVpf_PSlW__5QEz_0wjoPRnci

Mug Cake Is AMAZING

Wow!  Why did I not get into the mug cake phenomenon until now?!  When I would see pictures of mug cakes floating around on Pinterest I always thought, "Seriously? Come on! Yuck! How could a cake be made in the microwave and actually taste gooood?" 

Well, I am here to tell you mug cake works! It IS a mini cake and works to satisfy ANY sweet craving instantly and in a small way. Not only does it work, it works for me! 

Being sick, .. No. Having been sick and recovering (fighting back!) from my illness; eating a gluten free, sugar free, fruit free, and dairy free diet is VERY HARD and this modification** for cake is --well, it is incredible. It’s brilliant. #gamechanger It’s the greatest thing since sliced bread, and I would know, I used to be able to eat bread.

I think I may gain 5 pounds this month from this method of making cake. I will be posting some of my lil Mug Cakes so far. At 6 ingredients, 2-3 mins prep and usually a 1.5-2 min cook time, you could likely try one right now... but stay tuned! 💪🏻

*My modifications are stevia, xylitol or manuka honey for the sweeteners - only these, not erythritol, which is a corn sugar. *Coconut or almond flour for the flours *Homemade almond or coconut milk for the milks. *Flax eggs or eggs for the egg.

Here is a video of my broadcast on Younow making mug cakes for ignorant almond flour cooking viewers. :) 

And then there is a little joy moment. A 2 minute mug cake, easy peasy, easy does it one day at a time to make us smile on those hard days. Just don't put the silverware in the fridge or look for the almond milk in the cupboard like me. 😛

Here is the first mug recipe. An 8 oz or 10 oz mug works fine for me. 

Avocado Brownie Mug Cake

Ingredients:

4 1/2 tbsp flour (coconut or almond) 

4 tbsp xylitol or stevia to taste 


1/8 tsp baking powder
 (Corn free, alcohol free) 

2 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder


3 tbsp mashed avocado (a little less than half a medium avocado)


3 tbsp fat almond or coconut milk

Directions:

Mash avocado very well/smooth

Mix all ingredients into an oversized mug with a small whisk until smooth. 

Cook for about 1 1/2 minutes in microwave until cake is cooked. (Cook may times vary on microwave strength)

Let cake cool in mug before eating.

3 Song Faves A Day

This day is filled with hope and joy and energy!! Mental and let's try to see how far we can also physically go today!

(copy and paste into browser - listen while we take a moment to focus on this picture =)

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLr0yKcklrVpf_PSlW__5QEz_0wjoPRnci

3 Song Faves A Day

Here are my 3 favorite songs for today. Play them and listen with hope and I hope they bring a smile. Copy and paste this one into your browser. (link is wonky)

Here I will take a moment to prepare for getting well. Every journey begins with small steps.

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLr0yKcklrVpf_PSlW__5QEz_0wjoPRnci